Sweet Paradise

Happy Blessed New Year 2012!

2012-01-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

Happy Blessed New Year people!!

i cant believe how fast time pass...one year juz pass by like tat..

okay i can finally say i finish my first year of degree..yeah!!

is it good or bad that time pass so fast?..

it has its own pros n cons...=p

went to church today..

what Pastor say is so true..=]

is a brand new year..

so plan ur year well n look forward to those goal u set to achieve this year.

雨

2011-11-23T00:31:00.004+08:00

雨，下了一整天。

是夜，雨还是不停的下。

怎么了，以前很喜欢下雨天的。

渐渐的，长大了，不再喜欢雨天了吗？

不是的，只是雨不停的下，心情也随着天气，转换了。

雨水，打在窗前，也打进了我的心。

让我，不自觉地格外的想你。

让我，突显了我自己一个人的孤单。

让我，容许自己颓废，放空一整天。

让我，不知不觉地又找回了那段回忆。

不管怎样，雨啊，可不可以今夜下完了，明天就放晴了？

明天就放晴了好吗？雨过，就会天晴了。=]

2011/2011

2011-11-20T21:35:00.003+08:00

好难得的一个日子噢。2011/2011

不会再有这么特别的号码了。=p

在这么特别的日子里呢，我又是在干报告的过了。

嘿嘿，还是很想看多一次那些年，我们一起追得女孩。

可是，现在钱包空空的没得看了咯。T.T

好伤心噢，可是想到twilight-breaking dawn要出了就高兴起来了。

虽然他的书还是比较好看可是，懒惰看完他的书所以打算看戏而已咯。

最近好像想同咯，再次回忆起你不是只是为了回忆吧。

不是想自己想的那样吧。

应为我对现在的他有感情。

不管回忆再怎么侵蚀我的脑袋，到最后我最想的还是现在的他。

大姐说得对，要珍惜眼前的他。

不要失去了才后悔。

也许，有天我会后悔没有告诉你我的心情。

也许，有天在你的婚礼，新娘不是我，我会后悔当年的决定。

可是我不后悔现在的决定，

因为现在的他很珍惜我，我也要珍惜他。

或许，我会在你的婚礼出现，可是我会祝福你幸福快乐。

就这样吧。

李胜杰的痴心绝对，我不会再为了你唱。

倒数5天。=]

Trespass

2011-11-14T19:12:00.003+08:00

昨天想去再看多一次那些年，我们一起追得女孩，可是没有位了。好伤心啊。

然后就看了这部Trespass. 不错噢。Nicole Kidman 很漂亮噢。

这戏里所陈述的信任和爱是一个家庭最重要的噢。

有再多钱没有幸福和家庭温暖有什么用。

还有诚实也是很重要的。

够用就好了。不要强求太多。=]

今天，想说熬夜写的报告终于可以交上去了，那知道老师忽然说字数不可以超过1500。

我们全部傻眼！因为我们写了3000多个字。要怎么减啊？！

最后老师没有办法也要收我们的报告因为班上没有一个人知道这事。

还好努力没有白费。不知道写这么多干吗。

外面下了大雨，看着窗外的雨，打在玻璃窗上，就像打在我心上。

我想你了。只从看了那部片。我就知道自己在骗自己。

我会像片里的男主角一样吗？

出现在你的婚礼，可是新娘不是我？

知道你在很远的地方。

你还好吗？有想起我吗？在你心里有没有一个角落是我的？

那些年错过大雨，那些年错过的爱情，

好想拥抱你，拥抱错过的勇气。

曾经想征服全世界，到最后回首才发现，

这世界滴滴点点全部都是你。

那些年错过大雨，那些年错过的爱情，

好像告诉你，告诉你我没有忘记。

那天晚上满天星星，平行空下的约定，

在一次相遇我会紧紧抱着你。

紧紧抱着你。

— 那些年 — 胡夏

星期六

2011-11-13T00:29:00.003+08:00

今天是星期六噢，我却躲在房间里捻着电脑。

刚刚听了那些年，我们一起追得女孩的主题曲。

好感动哦。真的。感触很深。

会不会十年后，我会很感概的说，你是我错过的爱情？

还沉曼在那部片里啊！

回忆起小学，中学，现在很不可思议自己已经上了大学。

想起很多很多。开心的，伤心的，很多点点滴滴。

总觉得心里还有一个角落是你的。

从来，我都不许自己去触碰那个角落。

可是，看了这部片回想了。

笑了，傻笑了。

2011-11-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

昨天去看了这部片，等了超久，终于看到了。

好感动啊！在看多少次我都愿意。

不知不觉，陷进了这部电影里了。

在看着的当儿，也想到自己的经历。

这电影，真的有演进心坎里了。

看着看着，就笑了。

因为很真实，觉得自己以后也会有这样的情景。

敖犬好帅阿！看这部片由部分的原因是为了他。

不管怎样我还是自持棒棒堂的。不管是棒棒堂的那一个低迪。

要加油噢！可是如果是小禄的话那该有多好。

哈哈，昨天第一次和我的亲亲室友坐couple seat。

哈哈，好尴尬的氛围哦，可是好开心因为是最后两个位子了。

不要就不能看这部片了。

到新在还有一点不能抽离的感觉。

真的太真实了。感觉就好像埋藏很久的东西被挖出来。

啊！我一定要买这部片的DVD啦。

有机会我一定要去一趟台湾啦！

虽然我自认不是追星一族，可是能够有机会见小禄我还是会疯狂。

今天难得的11.11.11

大家有没有怎么特别的果呢？

我实在赶报告里度过的。haihz

加油咯！=p

十一月啦！

2011-11-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

新的月份=又有很多分报告要交。

这几天用尽了脑汁就是写不出几个字，不知道是压力大还是怎样。

haihz...加油啊荧！你可以的！=]

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人生真的有很多疑惑，很多事情是我们想破头也想不出原因的。

那天我的辅导师告诉我，

“不是每个人都能接受我，可是我身边还是会有很多接受我的人。”

这句话，让我笑开怀。

这句话，让我释怀。

让我醒悟，不是每一件事都要往负面的去向的。

我有想过这一句话，自是那时候的我太天真了吧。=]

她还告诉我，

“情绪，是可以有的，但是不要太多负面的。”

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如果我说爱你，能不能永远相信。

这一天我想跟着你，跟你说你最爱的笑话，

我想以后都能在一起。

每天想着你已变成习惯，

一直幻想你在我身边，

牵着你的手，我和你甜蜜的走。

感触

2011-10-29T00:44:00.002+08:00

今天是星期五野！

我竟然这样乖呆在房间读书之为了明天的考试。

最气的是竟然不知道要读什么，

因为没有课本，没有笔记，老实也没给资料。

请问我明天怎么考？

haihz..只能自由发挥了，还有Pray Hard！

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今天有点感概，想了很多。

第一次，戴起耳机，自己一个人走在街上。

这感觉不错，将自己封闭了，可以好好的想事，也可以让自己平静下来哦！

妈说的对，生气的时候，不要讲话也不要做决定，因为之后会后悔。

今天，还好理智战胜了脾气，不然我又要后悔了。=]

虽然，有很多事情不明白，也不知道为什么不是这样，

可是我学到冲动解决不了事情，反而让事情跟糟糕。

所以，在开口说话时，请三思你要说的话会不会伤害到人。=]

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好想念家人哦！

还想快点飞回家！

加油噢！=]

容忍的人其实并不笨，只是对自己残忍！

考试啊！

2011-10-23T23:18:00.003+08:00

前天看着窗外的雨，感触好深。

想着这些日子，自己是怎么挨过来的。

回忆赴汤蹈水，涌流而来。

快乐的，伤心的，寂寞的，孤单的，酸甜苦辣都有。

我要感谢在我身边的每一个人，

不管是，伤害我的，关心我的，带给我欢乐的，帮助我的，

我都很感激你们的出现。

因为，没有你们就不会有今天的我。

也很感谢主的保守与看顾，

今天我可以自己一个人越洋过海独自来这陌生的城市读书，

并非我原本就这么坚强，是上帝的爱与关怀让我觉得我不是自己一个人。

我知道，不管我到哪里，我都不会是自己一个人，这是我每天，最大的安慰。

知道祂从不丢弃我也从不撇下我。=]

感谢主！祂是我这辈子最好的朋友。

好啦，明天要考试啦，对我还在这里写部落各！

放心啦！我会读书的，自是不是现在。=p

加油咯明天跟我一起考试的朋友们！

要相信我们自己可以的！=]

刚才去买了贡茶给自己打气噢！

加油！加油！加油！=]

要带着满满的自信上战场噢！

我的最爱！谢谢Thia的介绍噢！=]

啊！今天不敢去开youtube噢！

我怕一发不可收拾。嘿嘿！

好想念小禄的歌声噢！

等下去听听给自己打气以下吧！=]

Officially missing Sarawak Laksa!

Can someone post it to me?!

迷糊的一天

2011-10-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

啊！好开心啊今天！报告终于交上去了。=]

昨夜真的好难熬，熬到早上九点才完成。

可是写完的那一刻我好开心啊！终于可以睡个好觉了。

可是想到星期一又有考试，整个心情就到低谷了。

算了，今天没有想读书的意思，放松够了才来打算吧，所以今天就很迷糊的熬过了。=p

今天又看了模范棒棒堂，真的很欣赏小禄噢！他唱歌真的很厉害！而且还很帅噢！

看到他的努力，我也告诉自己要加油！

虽然知道这辈子要看到他的几率是很渺茫的，

可是还是会希望偶像剧的情节发生在我们身上！

真的好想去台湾噢！一张合照片和一张签名照就够了。

啊！！！好了啦！收起幻想面对现实吧！

哈哈还有昨晚印证了一件事，

就是小禄说的太对了，熬夜笑点真的会变低！

好啦，今天就先这样啦！晚安！

最近真的好自恋噢！不好意思啦！

不睡的夜

2011-10-20T01:36:00.002+08:00

haihz..一天又过去啦，什么也没做到，真的很颓废。

以为今天可以完成报告的，结果什么也没做到。

本以为教授要把日期改到下个礼拜五教的，好高兴，哪里知道只是弄错了。

所以今晚是个不能睡的夜啦。

本来很气馁的，刚刚去听了小禄唱的围墙，心情好了起来。

有种感动的感觉 =]。

谢谢你小禄！<3

加油啦！

First paper done!!

2011-10-18T21:36:00.003+08:00

是的，mid-term 第一张paper考完啦！

我也不知道那些资料怎样跑进我的脑袋的。

考试前夕还跟我发烧。

好在今天又天父的帮忙，才可以在一个小时内读完6个礼拜的笔记。

yeah！感谢主！

haihz，说好今天考完试就要开始做报告的。

结果，我又瘫在电脑前看我爱黑涩棒棒堂啦。

可是，小禄真的很帅噢！他的歌声真的唱进我心坎里了啦！怎么会有这么好听的歌声！

小禄加油噢！会一直支持你的！=]

今天，自己煮粥吃。

哈哈，平时煮都ok的，只是不知道为什么今天我回去加那么多水，结果变成soup porridge. 哈哈，可是还是很好吃噢！

没钱的日子，就是这样过的啦。T.T

真后悔当初月头这么不会想，花了那么多钱，现在就要痛苦咯！

自己的错！=x

现在，窝在电脑前面，无所事事，就是不要写报告，我也不知道自己为什么会这样！

哎哟，真希望宿舍的line可以好一点，这样就不会看youtube看一半卡一下，看一半又卡一下！

很烦也！

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你不会知道你的失眠有我陪伴，

从不同方向盯着同一个月亮。

突然窗外飘进来烤面包的香，

那一天，能和你，手牵手吃早餐。

你很难想象你的夜里从不孤单，

有一个阿宅夜夜陪你等太阳。

早就为你打听好哪一扇橱窗，

一整晚都亮着，等我带你去欣赏。

-阿宅失眠记- 宅男塾，模范棒棒堂

Sem 3 la..=]

2011-10-16T23:51:00.008+08:00

是啦，都mid-term了才来写Sem3！

好懒惰哦，要不是朋友提醒我也忘了我很久没有写部落各了啦。

好吧，这次就写一个很长很长的，反正没有心情读书。=]

九月回来的时候跟我亲爱的wan yee还有一堆朋友去了Pulao Pangkor 噢。

哪里真的好美，只是晚上有点闷而已。

去了三天两夜。有变黑了噢！第一次吹海风也会黑噢！

玩得好开心，我们住在一间名宿，那个阿姨好好噢。谢谢她的照顾。

去出海，潜水，看了海胆还有海参还有去游泳。

我好大胆啊！竟然敢在哪里驾车，哈哈可是整个岛也只有22KM不怕啦。

吃了好多的海鲜噢，肥了啦！T.T 不可以！要控制！

好好玩的三天。回来了就要回去上课了。haihz..

在码头等船哦！终于发现我唯一不晕的就是船啦！好高兴噢！

yeah! 好兴奋阿！

漂亮叻！=]

当然要自恋以下啦！

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哈哈，九月和十月看了好多戏噢！难怪都没钱用。真的自讨苦吃！

看了，

- Final Destination 5 那个照片太恐怖了我就不放了。嘿嘿。

- Cars 2

- Nasi Lemak 2.0

- The Smurf!! 好可爱啊！

- Love In Space

- Dream House 这个虽然不恐怖，可是他的poster太阴森了。

- The Thing, 我看过最恶的戏啦！不知道我哪根筋不对劲去看这部戏！@.@ 这个也不放了。

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最近朋友发生了一些事情。

希望他们加油噢！要继续相信神的大能噢！

加油！加油！加油！

2 Corinthians 12:9 我的恩典够你用的。

My Holiday!!

2011-08-01T15:46:00.003+08:00

I'm home!! (errmmm 2 weeks pass by dy..hehe)

finally have a long long sem break, although is only 1 month but i thank God that i have holidays!!

am gonna spent my holiday wisely this time.

yes, i say i am gonna make something out of this holiday!! Lols..

First week of holiday....

spent my first week of holiday bringing my college mates around Kuching!!

I hope they have a great 4 days and 3 night trip in Kuching!!

we done a lot of crazy stuff and i loaded their stomach with a lot of nicey food!!

haha..i make sure they all EAT!!

Realize that i am more daring in terms of driving dy!! Yeah!!

thanks to Min Yeen and my frens that i have finally learn how to do side parking!! =]

Send them to Airport after coming down from Damai..=]

Adelene, Jayshee, Samantha and Min Yeen have a great holiday ahead!! miss u all lotss!! <3

Second week of holiday....

Yes!! second week of holiday we have Prayer and Fasting week..=]

everytime fast food only this time i wanna challenge myself with something different...

as i was thinking wat to fast..internet come to my mind!! O.O is a though decision but then I MADE IT!! haha...

i can only say in this 1 week i learn a lot of things and i finally realize i can do many things without spending my time on internet..=]

hmmm need some more breakthrough!! =]

this is the 3rd week of holiday, i still have a long list of things that i wanna do!!

Jia you o yvonne!! =]

although there is a lot of things at home waiting for me to be done..

but i still wanna say hometown is the best!! =] <3

Haha..aww such a long holiday indeed..

i started to miss my cute roommate on the second day of my holiday dy..

Wynne Tan!! see i never forget u de lo..

miss u so much!! haha..=p

我们`之间

2011-06-30T22:58:00.001+08:00

棒棒糖 - 我们之间

这一段时间有着什么样的画面喜怒哀乐全写在日记里面

发现每一页全都是经典所有故事都值得纪念

现实的考验我们说好一起面对不管多久多远绝对不喊累

期待彼此更美好的明天我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线最紧密的圆圈) 肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)

深呼吸做你最高的堡垒风吹过的海边雨水下过的季节

让我好想念我们之间不会有改变

相同的起点一瞬间变成了乐园

我们之间转了一大圈相同的终点会发现

所有的心愿会实现现实的考验我们说好一起面对

不管多久多远绝对不喊累期待彼此更美好的明天

我们说好谁也不放弃谁

手牵着手(连成线最紧密的圆圈) 肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)

深呼吸做你最高的堡垒风吹过的海边雨水下过的季节

让我好想念我们之间不会有改变

相同的起点一瞬间变成了乐园

我们之间转了一大圈相同的终点会发现

所有的心愿会实现

感概

2011-06-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

以前，总认为，只要，变漂亮就会被存在感，别人会注意你。

所以，用尽了所有的方式，想让自己漂亮一点。

可是，在过程中，发现，原来变漂亮了还是会被别人忽略。

所以，前功尽弃，走反效果，搞自闭，觉得只要默默付出就好。

哪里知道，反而被人家完全的忽视。

不知道，该怎么做了。想在做回原来的自己，已经是不可能的事。

因为，思想已经改变了，回不去年轻的天真。

再来一次，我会选择做自己。

你们知道吗，那一年，我们友谊的船裂了一个缝。

那个缝，在我心里留下的疤痕，怎么也补不回去。

从此以后，不管是什么事，我都小心翼翼，不敢乱乱讲话。

讲的每一句话，都三思而后行，深怕讲错一句话，船又会裂多一个缝。

甚至，我都不说话，只听你们说。

可是也因为这样，我就被你们忽视了吗？

就因为我不知道要怎么跟你们沟通吗？

有时候我真的很想问你们，我在你们心里的位置。

可是，这个年龄，还做这种事的话，会变成幼稚的行为吧。

所以，我强颜欢笑，我在你们面前，给足你们面子。

有永远不说话，因为我不知道要怎么取悦你们。

我怕说错话，我怕搞砸事情。所以，我永远不做决定，你们说什么我都好。

你们知道吗？你们记得叫我出去玩一次，我可以开心很久。

就因为，我永远在你们的脑海中缺席。

我不是在抱怨，只是没地方发泄，只有写出来了。

不想写了。

心情：像古晋的天气一样。

苦茶

2011-06-01T00:20:00.001+08:00

苦茶

棒棒堂/黑涩会美眉

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼

街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨

没什么能做但我比谁都真诚

泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深

你知不知道你总有一种很可爱的独特

让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷

怎样做才会完美像个男人

喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

不用等你开口先说我爱你

在那之前想对你说我愿意

你不必问你也不必等

这一刻就值得爱到永恒

我该如何让你明白我爱你

在那之后你点头说我愿意

想照顾你想守护着你

这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道你也有一种很可爱的天真

大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分

怎样做才会完美像个男人

喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温

虽然永远太不可能

少了你的完整

两个对的人奇迹就能发生

这一刻只想把你

抱紧

新不了情

2011-04-12T15:41:00.002+08:00

心若倦了，泪也干了，

这份深情，难舍难了。

曾经拥有，天荒地老，

已不见你，幕幕与朝朝。

这一份情，永远难了，

原来生，还能再度拥抱。

爱一个人，如何厮守到老，

怎样面对一切，我不知道。

回忆过去，痛苦相思忘不了。

为何你，还来拨动我心跳。

爱你怎么能了，

今夜的你应该明了。

缘难了，情难了。

疤痕

2011-04-04T00:51:00.002+08:00

曾经有个男孩暗恋一个女生，可是当时的女孩不以为意，没有理会。

男孩，温柔体贴小心对待女生的弟弟妹妹。

只是当时的女孩，觉得男生多此一举，没有感动，没有感觉。

三年后，大家也都长大了一点，成熟了一些。

这三年来男孩对女生的关心，体贴，照顾一点都没有少。

女孩不知怎的开始暗恋男了，她只跟她的好朋友说了。

她没有想告诉男孩因为她不想破坏她们之间的友谊。

很少男生会对女孩这么的细心，这么的体贴。

女孩隐藏的很好，男孩没有发现女孩在暗恋他。

一切都很好，可是人家都说好景不常在。

某某人偷偷的告诉男孩女孩喜欢上他了。

从此男孩刻意拉远了他们的距离，经常玩失踪。

女孩不知道发生了什么事情，只是男孩这么刻意的疏远女孩开始担心了。

女孩的生日到了，不知怎的，女孩觉得生日失去了色彩。

女孩没带很大的希望，只想普普通通的过。

晚上上网，看到朋友们的祝福，没看到男孩的。

女孩笑了一下，骂了自己一声傻瓜。

本想就这么算了，干脆去休息把电脑关了。

怎知男孩上网了，主动跟女孩聊天。

女孩以为雨过天晴了。

怎知是噩梦的开始。

男孩写了一篇文章给女孩，告诉她，他不想伤害她可是他们还是做朋友好。

女孩看了呆了几分钟，告诉自己要坚强，不可以落泪。

女孩很平静的告诉男孩，没事的，她会理清自己的情绪，他们继续当要朋友吧。

女孩以为讲开了，他们就可以时光倒流，可以像以前一样的要好。

可是女孩错了，男孩彻底在女孩的面前消失了。

女孩很伤心，可能找她自认的好朋友倾诉。

没多久女孩收到消息，女孩的好朋友跟男孩在一起了。

女孩知道后晴天霹雳，嘲笑自己不是单纯的笨，嘲笑自己人家喜欢自己的时候，是自己把人推开的，现在自己自讨苦吃。

在几天里面，失去了友情，失恋。

女孩崩溃了。

男孩和好朋友都消失在她的世界。

女孩独自撑过来了，只是一直在她脸上的灿烂笑容，变成了一成不变的假笑。

就在女孩的伤口结疤的时候，男孩又突然出现了。

虽然只是在网上写了一段字，可是伤口被回忆狠狠地撕开了。

虽然没有很大的心情起伏，只是有点可惜这段这么久的友谊，没有其他的。

女孩领悟了，自己根本在骗自己，虽然放下了，可是却还在意。

PS男，夏和杰说 “是我自己太傻，才会让自己受伤。”

夕阳，沉思，回忆

2011-04-03T18:18:00.004+08:00

看不见的夕阳，凉快的阵风，时起时落。

我坐在繁忙城市角落的咖啡厅，

独自一个人享受着这不算漂亮的风景。

桌上的奶茶，激不起我想喝它的欲望。

不知怎的，愉快的心情，现在被乌云笼罩着。

突然想起，林宇中的“靠岸”，有一句歌词是这样唱的“咖啡麻醉不了孤单”，

述说着我现在的心情。

真的孤单吗？不知。

有一股很想要人陪伴，可是又不想谈话的感觉。

爱上了，在喧闹中的宁静。

此刻，不知自己该做什么。

偶像剧，不想看。

小说，激不起我要读它的欲望。

想念某某人？不见得。

写报告嘛，更不用说了。

沉溺在我自己的世界里，拒绝与人互通。

什么时候，变成这个样子，我不知道。

什么时候，又回到了原点，我不知道。

不知不觉中，

又回到了，把自己封闭的我。

又回到了，与世隔绝的我。

又回到了，把自己关起来的我。

这么爱独来独往吗？

并不是，只是心里的那道疤，有谁会知道。

原以为，不一样的城市会让过去烟消云散，

只能说，自己估计错误，不一样的地方，却让伤痕被狠狠地撕开，

这次伤痕更深了。

颓废

2011-02-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

笔记本里，

A科：有报告要写，得搜集资料，明天要交。

B科：后天要考试了，要温书。

C科：报告的结论要写，组员在等，不要让人家等。

还有很多很所事要做........

笔记本里记载了很多要完成的事项，

可是，此时坐在电脑前的我，一点也不想完成他们。

我放任自己颓废，放任自己跟着心情做事，放着自己一天比一天跟懒散。

可是为何？为何我会变得如此放肆？我自己也不知道，我也不想啊！

只是，

总是，提不起劲

总是，拖延

总是，纵容自己说还有很多时间

总是，任由自己追着偶像剧跑

总是，把课业放在最后

好累哦，真的很累。

每天每天，我都在希望时间过得快一点，

我想，回家，

我想，回到我觉得温暖又安全的地

我想，放假

我想，无忧无虑的过日子

可是，我能够吗？

事实是残酷的，我必须学着接受现实。

路是自己选的，不能埋怨，只能接受。

只觉得自己，越来越懒惰。

不能再这么放任自己了。

想想，自己的梦想

想想，这么辛苦赚钱的父母

想想，天父给你的机会

大学，不是每个人都付得起的教育。

既然自己这么的幸运。

是不是应该珍惜呢？

是的，不能再放任自己跟着情绪走了。

要懂得珍惜噢！=）

你说晴天代表你的心情，雨天更是你对生命的反应，

你说每天生活一样平静，对于未来没有一点信心。

亲爱朋友，你是否曾经，曾经观看满天的星星，

期待有人能够了解你心，能够爱你使你力量更新。

耶稣能够将一切都更新，耶稣能够体会你的心情，

耶稣能够改变你的曾经，

耶稣爱你！耶稣疼你！耶稣能造一个全新的你！

2011

2011-02-25T21:15:00.004+08:00

hmmm compare my last post's date n today date n u will noe how lazy i am...=)

hahahaha okok i admit i have been really really really lazy...=p

so much have happen the pass two months...

n is a new year dy!! okay...LATE HAPPY 2011 and BELATED HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

this is lik all so late...=p

Cannot deny is a new year...

n my life journey continue...

is juz tat i look back n realize i have walk a little further from last last year..

and i am closer to my goal..=)

am officially in university tis year...

i thank God for everything He have provided for me...

and i noe if is not of Him i wont even pass foundation so smoothly..

once again THANK YOU LORD!!

and yes

"For I can do everything with the help of Christ who gives me strength I need" Philippians 4:13

okay..officially a Psychology student...

first year first sem...

hmmm honestly is not sooooo stress lik i thought it will be...

and thank God He is always a faithful God..=)

and i pray that i am walking on the right path that He wan me to walk on..=)

so far is okay now...still capable and still bearable on my studies...=]

slowly adapting to the uni life...

i think i need to learn to be more responsible to my own life and future...=)

jia you for myself...

will stop here...

tata..

jia you ppl on ur mid-term paper..=)

无力，无助

2010-12-03T17:38:00.003+08:00

桌上，堆满了，一本一本叠起的课本，一页一页填满字的笔记。

电脑，显示着，一幕一幕的资料。

虽然，零食在旁，可是，已经没有力去享受它。

满满的字，厚厚的资料，一样一样被我塞进了脑袋。

可是，我可怜的脑袋，好像到了极限了，在不断的暗示我，它要罢工了。

可是，我不妥协，因为，我不能啊，还有很多很多的资料得塞进去啊！

所以阿，脑袋，帮帮忙，别再用疼痛折磨我。

配合一下嘛，你可以的！

啊！要崩溃了，我的头好痛啊！！！

好累啊！我要倒塌了，救命啊！

冰冷的夜晚

2010-12-02T23:52:00.004+08:00

紧闭的房间，四面墙，窗口紧闭，冷气没开，风扇没启动，可是为什么还是那么的冷？

开始觉得自己不妥，如果是病了还安心点，因为原因存在，可是什么都没发生。

为什么，一到晚上，手脚就会不自觉地冰冷?

为什么，左手不冷，右手却像结了冰？

为什么，交叠的脚，左脚不痛，右脚痛？

太多的疑问让我不得不怀疑自己除了问题。

可是，我有时间去理会这些事情吗？

我连读书的时间都不够，还能想这些事情吗?

心寒了......

想到了很多东西，

这一刻或许，我可以纵容自己，放任自己，任性的不想温书，可是，在未来我肯定会后悔。

再来，这么烂的成绩，我要怎么面对辛辛苦苦送我越洋过海读书的父母？我愧对他们啊！

过后，不及格的几率会提高很多，那么请问我还能顺利进大学吗？

最后，还是得花父母的钱来弥补我的任性，值得吗？

虽然，在父母的眼里，不管我们错的多么离谱，他们还是会包容我们。

可是，我有脸为了我的任性，再花他们的钱读一样的科目吗？

那么，请问我还有理由任性吗？我还有脸偷懒吗？

压力啊！

可是，有压力是好事，因为它逼着我面对现实，面对考试。

再者，就因为它残忍的存在，我得逼自己温书，赶走一切的理由，全心全意地温书。

一再的，告诉自己，过了这一关，就好了。

一再的，安慰自己，其实考试不难，有心就一定能够克服它。

一再的，提醒自己，我不是在孤军作战，我有爱我的天父，祂会牵着我的手陪我一起度过的。

一再的，劝告自己，不能让父母失望，不能让弟妹有坏榜样。

或许，你们会觉得我开起来有多轻松，会觉得我吊儿郎当，

可是那是拿来伪装自己的担心和害怕。

我没有你们看起来的自信，没有你们觉得的那么镇定。

我也只是个普通女孩，我没什么特别。

可能是因为，不管再怎么担心我都知道，我有一位神可以依靠，那不代表我可以什么都不做，只是祂给了我平安，祂安慰了我焦急的心灵，祂不离不弃的陪在我身边，这就是为什么，在多么压力的环境，我还是可以笑得出来。

笑，可以有很多种，可是发自内心的笑一下，会点亮你灰暗的天空。

可能那种喜悦维持不久，可是还是可以让你轻松一下，敞开胸怀，静下来。

就算是几分钟，也足够了吧？

提起十二分精神温书咯！=）

记得偶尔要笑一下，轻松一下噢。

下雨的夜晚

2010-11-29T23:08:00.004+08:00

雨滴打在身上，不痛，没感觉了，已经麻木了，学会享受雨打在身上的真实感。

为什么呢？为什么痛不再有？为什么麻木了呢？

因为，习惯了痛的感觉。

因为，看清了事实。

因为，知道一旦错过了什么就回不去了。

因为，知道没得后悔。

因为，知道会伤害到自己，所以把自己封闭起来。

因为，知道自己并没有那么的重要。

因为，习惯了被人遗忘。

曾经，以为自己，够坚强，不管怎样都可以笑脸迎人。

曾经，是多么的天真，以为对人好就会有相同的待遇，可是，这世界利用你的人，永远多过珍惜你的人。

曾经，自己是多么的自信，但是这社会的残酷，一点一滴的把我的自信摧毁。

曾经，说服自己，朋友很多，可是回头一看，真心的有多少个？

曾经，告诉自己不管难关有多难过，只要有心就一定能，可是，是真的吗？

曾经，以为，朋友只要在一旁默默的为他们付出，他们就会注意到你的存在，可是又错了。

已经，看透了，这社会，不争的你死我活，不甘心。

已经，精疲力尽了。

已经，学会，不听，不闻，不问。

已经，学会，提心吊胆过日子，看清人家的脸色，讲对的话。

所以，听天由命。

所以，退一步，不干涉这社会的纠纷。

所以，把自己封闭在自己的世界，不会被伤害。

所以，学会了，沉默，不回应，就不会惹是生非。

所以，学会了，睁一只眼，闭一只眼。

所以，学会了，敷衍，讲好听的话而已。

所以，学会了，见机行事，在对的时候做对的事。

所以，学会了，小心翼翼，怕被排挤。

所以，学会了，不出主意，跟大队就不会出事。

所以，学会了，保护自己的心，不再受伤害。

所以，学会了，假笑着对人。

所以，学会了，掩饰真正的自己，演出坚强的我。

累了，真的累了。

好辛苦，真的很辛苦。

有人了解我的心情吗？

没有，因为不重要，我在他们的心中微不足道。

请问可以放我几天假吗？

让我，抛下所有不管。

让我，只和爱人在一起，享受二人世界。

让我，关机，关电脑，关掉所有找得到我的仪器。

让我，完全消失在这个世界。

让我，没有压力的想去什么地方就去。

让我，不用再担心，人家会怎么指指点点。

就这么几天，可以吗？

事实很残酷的，回答了我，不可以！

因为，你有责任不让周围的人担心。

因为，你还是得活下去，就算世界很残忍。

因为，你有爱你的家人，不可以伤他们的心。

因为，你得做个好榜样。

因为，你不能丢下一切，不闻不问。

因为，你不能逃避。

因为，你只有面对现实的选择。

雨再次落下，打在我的脸上，眼泪跟着落下，没有人看到，因为，雨掩饰了我的脆弱。

Holiday

2010-11-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

Yes today is a holiday..and the sad thing is we only have one day of holiday lo...T.T...haha nvm..better have then don't have rite?..hehe hang out with a bunch of leng zai n leng lui today to celebrate Mr. Leng Zai Shun Zhi's birthday!!..Lols...wake up at 12 today..n then jump up to get ready...(holiday is meant for sleeping rite?..so forgive me!!)..Lols...then went to Mid-valley..bought Sammy's advanture 3D's ticket (the queue was super long) O.O...so shock to see Harry Porter's ticket was *selling fast* for each and every time slot..i was lik O.O omgdness...really tat nice to watch?..sorry is not my field..haha..then went to Sushi Zanmai to have lunch..hmmm nice...Sushi!!..my favourite...=)...eat till almost 4pm then went to go watch our movie...the turtle is so super cute!! i love the graphic in that movie...imagine all the super small size turtle crawling all over the place!!..so cute!!!...but o..dunno boys dunno how to enjoy the show...the birthday boy fall asleep in between the movie!!! swt!! haha cannot blame them though..=p..is not boys type of movie...=]...after movie go n have Ice kacang...but no offence i still lik Kuching's...=]...had a great day!! Mr. Shun Zhi..hope this will be a memorable 18th birthday for u..=]...

BY2 - 这叫爱

2010-11-16T01:11:00.003+08:00

BY2 - 这叫爱

爱，它来去没预兆，像感冒，总无法预料

why，连呼吸都难熬，难道是我发高烧，好不了

everytime i look into your eyes

那心跳的律动总，对不上节拍

他们说这叫，爱

everytime you look into my eyes

大多心里话，怎么说不出来

烦恼都随着你摇摆，爱你成依赖

还，写着给你的歌，拼凑着，每一篇快乐

怪，竟是模糊音色，难道是我发高烧，怎么了

everyime i look into your eyes

那心跳的律动总，对不上节拍

他们说这叫，爱

everyime you look into my eyes

大多心里话，怎么说不出来

烦恼都随着你摇摆，爱你成依赖

放不开，不明白这是

爱得太早，还是太快

everyime i look into your eyes

那心跳的律动总，对不上节拍

他们说这叫，爱

everyime you look into my eyes

大多心里话，怎么说不出来

烦恼都随着你摇摆，爱你成依赖

Statistic quiz!!

2010-11-16T01:03:00.003+08:00

yes am studying for statistic quiz..

and yes i can only study when i see the time strike 11pm at night..

i dunno why...

nvm..+u +u!!..

Stats..i am gonna fight u and win the battle with God's help!!..

i am glad..when i have no one to turn to for help..

i still have my Abba Father!!..=)..

smile wide wide..bcoz i am so blessed!!..

Thank You Lord..for reminding me tat You are real!!..

am not gonna blame anyone for things that has happened..

i deserve all the punishment...hehe...

因赏赐是你，收取也是你。

今天我选择跟随你.....=)

Prom

2010-11-14T00:43:00.004+08:00

Yes our long awaited prom...

is finally over...

omgdness i never noe prom also can be so tiring de lo...

but is a great one!!

i haven't been so happy in such a long time...

but in the same time i am feeling a bit emotional too..

hmmm..cannot blame me...

seeing people come in couple by couple..

and me...i am all alone..

but i am glad i have frens and brothers around me..

thank you people for putting in the effort to cheer me up..=)

12112010...prom day...

almost cant wake up in the morning..

then get ready n go out...

here we go on the way to Renaissance hotel..

reach jor...and spent 6 hours in the room putting our hair, face and nails in place...

omgdness we all so hungry dy..haha..

but worth it la..tis is y ppl say be girl very ma fan de ma..

hehe 7 something..go down register..

then cam whore all round..

i never thought i can take so many pics de lo..

have to thank my dear wynne make me brave in taking pics..

is not about ugly or not..is about the memories..=)

performance was great...

food was okay...

friends is awesome!!..love u all...

haha n guess wat i got a lucky draw..

and the present is a kickboxing ticket..*faint*

they all laugh so hard...

11 something they open the dance floor..

and everything is heat up at tat moment..

everyone flooded the floor...

then after everything ends..

we went to this mamak stall for drinking..

imagine 10 plus ppl all wearing so dangling and go mamak stall..

feel so out of place...haha..=p..

had a great day though...

is a very memorable experience...=)

haha and yes Emman is back for a week dy!!...

welcome home!! is so happy to see him again..=p..

love tis pics to the max!!

13112010...

super not enough sleep today...

wake up quite early n almost late to go out...

went to Mid valley to help a fren celebrate her birthday..

went to watch UNSTOPPABLE...

omgdness i got so tense up watching the movie bcoz is so kin tio...

have lunch in the food court..

n then have dinner wif my dear wynne..

so long didnt talk so long dy lo..

hehe..so tired..come back straight away sleep till 9 something..

feels lik my body clock all mess up dy...

haihz..but tis is wat college life is rite?..

haha..

wish i am juz beside u now..

cuddles..

i miss u lots..

Prom Eve

2010-11-12T00:53:00.004+08:00

Lols few more hours to prom and i am still here typing my blog...yes i will surely have panda eyes tml..but i cant help it...i cant sleep yet...hehe...=)...

haihz..发现到我的华语大退步，

所以才想到要用华语写部落各咯..

hehe..最近啊爱上李圣杰的眼底星空

好好听哦，又有一首爱不释手的歌了。

讲到prom哦，我不知道要高兴还是伤心，

为了它哦，我的钱包大出血，

哎，这个月又要多在房间里面吃蛋跟饭了。

悲哀啊！！我也不想要这样的啊！！

哎！算了，自己找来的。

又觉得自己出不了大场面了，

好自卑噢，我也不想的啊，

只是好像每个人都很漂亮，身材又好，

而回头看看我自己，不悲哀才怪。

好伤心啊！！算了吧不想了。

每个人都好忙哦，忙着把自己打扮得漂漂亮亮的，

那就玩个痛快吧明天。

=）

眼底星空
李圣杰

你好喜欢看我眼睛，你说是宇宙的缩影
只要没有分离，天气晴能看见星星
我努力爱你宠你调整自己


我是邻居还是伴侣，时间带来残忍结局
在爱情的隔壁祝友情，界线太RIULE
对不起这一刀切开所有亲密


眼底星空 ，流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走，转过身跌入黑洞
看着天长地久变两种漂泊，男人流泪比流血加倍心痛
眼底星空，流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求，愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞，谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风

用三年去维系感情，用三秒钟结束关系
剩回忆能回去能温习能把你抱紧，就算爱烧成灰迹扬起变乌云

眼底星空 ，流星开始坠落
每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走，转过身跌入黑洞
看着天长地久变两种漂泊，男人流泪比流血加倍心痛
眼底星空，流星跌落手中
我静静握着抬头向上天祈求，愿你先找到温柔
有人包扎伤口也挡住寂寞，谢谢你陪我陪爱听雨吹风 （x2)谢谢他给你给爱另一个星空

Its 1 am in the morning..

wonder y i am not asleep yet..

because u r not home yet..

hehe..

waiting for u has become part of my life..

i got use to listening to ur voice..

i got use to merajuk-ing wif u..

i got use to the love u give me..

i am addicted to u..

missing you lotss..

November

2010-11-04T01:09:00.003+08:00

Yes i blink my eyes awhile n is November dy...

say bye bye to October...

2010 is going to be over soon..

tat's mean my foundation will end..

and degree will start...

n i am officially here in KL for bout 10 months dy..

dunno y feels lik tis year pass by too fast..

but i noe i learn a lot of things..

noe a lot of frens..

and i change a lot..

haha..=)

hmmm classes is hectic tis few days..

dunno y same schedule but i feel that it is more tired than before..

maybe i forget to keep my after-midterm mood..

haha should turn on final mood dy..=p

start studying..

yes i say only..start studying..

thinking back...

God have been really really good to me this year..

miracle happens everytime when i check my final results..

If it wasn't for God's grace and mercy..

i dun think i can pass all my subject..

and God always have His own ways..

my worst subject..

He always let me have the highest grade for that..=)

Oh Lord how grateful i am to be Your daughter..

Thank you Lord for everything that You have provided for me..

天离地有何等的高，祂的慈爱也何等的深，
东离西有多么的远，祂使我的过犯远离我多远，
耶和华有怜悯的爱，也有丰盛无尽的恩典，
从亘古直道永远，耶和华祂是我的神。

hmmm why do i sense the warning of my old self is coming back?..

i dun wan...i use a lot of effort to walk out and be the me today..

i dun wan to go back and be the me who keep quiet all the time..

and dun wanna talk at all..

i dun wan to lock up myself...

but why...

i am starting to do tis...

i start to stray away from people..

i start to listen more and talk less..

i start to be very very cautious of wat i say..

argh!!! stop stop stop....

*slap myself*

okay..yvonne wake up!!...

that is a nightmare...

is a history...

it wont happen again..

phew..

Is a quarter after one..

i am all alone..

and i need you now..

Lecture => tutorial => assignment => Mid-term

2010-10-18T20:37:00.002+08:00

argh!!! okla okla...tis sem is not so stress lik last sem lo....

but o...replacement class...replace till crazy...

n then in a glimpse of eyes...half a sem gone dy...

sooo O.O u noe...

was soooo shock mid term arrive so fast...

assignment come after one another...

but i am glad tis sem dun have so much of presentation..

is all writing assignment...

thank God o..=)...

hmmmm sorry blog i left u to rot here for so long...

really lazy to write...

dunno y today feel lik writing...=)

hmmm is mid term week but i still dun feel lik having exams yet...

yvonne!! u should be studying...

yes i noe the longer time i spent here i am gonna regret when i c my results..

i promise i will work hard tis time k...

haihz...still miss home lots...

miss u lotsss too...

LDR is never easy..

but tis is wat we choose...

so we will have to continue wif it...

bit my lips n get over it day by day...

hmmm...=)

i noe distance make us stronger..

although we can see each other everyday...

although we r parted by a South China Sea..

but i noe our heart r near together...

我的爱，只能够，让你一个人独自拥有...

KL -> home -> KL

2010-09-29T00:09:00.005+08:00

haihz...tis connection didnt stop at home...coz i noe is always a short holiday n i will be back to KL always so soon...buying airticket is never one way...always have to buy 2 way..so sad..but i noe when i made the decision to study far..i have no right to pull out half way...is not fair to everyone..i have to be responsible...yes is this word...RESPONSIBLE...i have to be responsible for my own act n my future so...bit my lips, be tough, no more tears, tahan the heartache...continue to study....tis is life of a college student...haha..but i noe no matter wat i am going through..God have already prepare my future for me...n i noe He will hold my hands n walk wif me through all the ups n downs...=P...

went home for a few days...

mooncake festival ba..

grandma birthday ba..

n i miss u ba...hehehe...=P

but once i got home i dun wanna come back here dy...

coz i noe we will be far apart again..

n i miss the warmth at home...

home is my comfort zone..

but i noe to train myself to be tough i nd to get out of my comfort zone...

still miss u lotssss...=)

想念是會呼吸的痛它活在我身上所有角落

哼你愛的歌會痛看你的信會痛連沉默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛它流在血液中來回滾動

後悔不貼心會痛恨不懂你會痛想見不能見最痛

my heart is crying out for u..

can u hear my cry?..

can u sense tat i nd u a lot right now?..

do u noe tat i am missing u lik crazy?..

yes, i noe u do..

Mooncake festival

2010-09-23T00:42:00.002+08:00

haihz...is mooncake festival..
should be home having fun wif my bro n sis n cousin de..
but i am stuck here alone in hostel..
but luckily i got frens all around..=)...
thank you...

独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲...
finally understand the meaning of this poem...
hmmm miss mummy n daddy so much...
miss playing candle n lantern wif bro n sis...T.T
aiya i miss home la...
hmmm...=(

hmmm went o Redbox wif my frens today..
hehehe they rocks..
make my day kinda happening today...
n make me not so home sick..=)
THANKS SO MUCH PEOPLE!!!..

明月幾時有，把酒問青天。不知天上宮闕，今夕是何年。我欲乘風歸去，又恐瓊樓玉宇，高處不勝寒。起舞弄清影，何似在人間。轉朱閣，低綺戶，照無眠。不應有恨，何事長向別時圓。人有悲歡離合，月有陰晴圓缺，此事古難全。但願人長久，千裏共嬋娟。

miss u so much..
especially when there is festival like today..
we suppose to have chance to shang yue together..
but still a big fat sea part us..
but we r still looking at the same moon..
can u sense tat i am missing u so much?..
i can really use a wish now..
juz wanna be beside u..

Statistics...

2010-09-14T23:40:00.004+08:00

aww lecturer throw a big boom today as she ask us to memories all 17 formula
n she wanna test us tml...
omgdness..i memang not good wif math dy..
now all the formula is drowning me..
HELP!!..yes..i am a HELP student so HELP is needed..
hahaha..=P...so random..
really hope i can pass my stats this sem!!
*finger cross*

do you noe wat is the feeling of disappointed?..
it is when u expecting something or someone..
but in the end didnt turn up..
n no msg no warning no nothing to tell u cant turn up..
make me stupidly waiting n waiting..
wasting time guessing..
omgdness..
so long tis feeling didnt come to me already..
and you successfully make me cried..
CONGRATULATION..
how am i suppose to sleep tonight?..
you noe i cant sleep without listening to ur voice..
IS GONNA BE A SLEEPLESS NITE..
THANK YOU SO MUCH..

11.09.10

2010-09-11T22:25:00.003+08:00

went movie wif wan yee, YS, teck kiong, shun zhi, alex n hui jien..
watch 3D Resident Evil After Life..
is nice but is not my type of movie
sorry people i still prefer romance..=)
okay i broke my shoe again today..
dun wanna buy shoe dy..
i am juz gonna wear my skul shoe..
dunno y so moody today..

not even in a happy mode..

all the fake smile make me tired...
but i really had fun going out wif them..
haha they can really make u laugh n then make u swt terribly...
LOLS!!...

When the sun rises,
i'll be there to share my love with you.
I'll do my best to bring you happiness each day.
When nights falls,
I'll be the shining stars that watch over you.
Although a big sea part us,
but it will never refrain my love from reaching you.

movie day...

2010-09-09T01:23:00.003+08:00

hahaha..talk about randomness..
went to Mid Valley today with my dear Wynne and Alex...
we were talking after Legal class n dunno how in the end we end up going to MV..
Lols see we r always so random..
but both of them wanna watch Step Up 3...
since i watch dy so i watch another movie alone called Going The Distance...
aww the movie really talks bout me n Timmy...
we r so far away from each other n we do miss each other soooooooooo much!!..
the movie got me so down tat i keep on eating tonight...
hmmm is a bad sign...
but i eat to rmb those memories we have
i ate McFlurry....
saw kitkat but i didnt buy...
pass by Starbucks n i cant get myself to buy a drink coz i really cant afford now..
everything reminds me of u..
n suddenly i realize LDR is not as easy as we thought...
but i dun wanna care so much anymore...
we will let it flow naturally...=)

after that we random enough to watch another movie..
Lols we watch Grown Ups...
haha is so funny n yet the values is good
although some of the scenes is bad for kids..
it should really be consider a 18 n above categories..
is a real good movie..
i like it..hehehe..=)

wah~ so not use to having 8aM class again..
always cant get up..
but when think of daddy n mummy..
i will force myself to wake up..=)
they work so hard for my fees, not for me to skip classes...
so must gambateh!! JIA YOU!!..
hehehe so tired dy...
should turn in...
nitez...

EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES
MOMENTS WITH YOU APPEARS IN MY MIND
HOW I MISS TO BE WITH YOU
AND IT REMINDS ME HOW FAR R U AWAY FRON ME
BUT I NOE EVERTHING IS GONNA BE FINE..=)

Hmmm back to KL...=(

2010-09-06T02:25:00.002+08:00

came back for about 1 week dy...kinda get over the homesickness dy..no more crying myself to sleep..=)...I MISS U LOTSS DEAR...i think i got use to hearing his voice before i sleep...cant get myself to sleep without hearing his voice...his voice tell me tat he is near me..juz wanna be beside you dear if i can..haihz..

haha..btw Sem 3 started..kinda satisfied wif my timetable although is crazy..but i got friday empty again..n tat's mean i got chance to go penang..=)..yeah!! haha...*omgoodness all my fren say i am too into Penang..but i lik Penang..so no choice..hehe..=P* lets see...go to class one day later coz i came back one day late...so far the 2 classes i went on thursday was okay...Lols n than we was thinking so long for wat to eat for dinner tat nite..we talk from Chilies to Ali maju...so we end up going to ali maju..i juz got back tat day only u noe n already struggling of wat to eat...c we really have not much choice here...

Lols n then friday free...went to Midvalley wif Cynthia, YY, my dear Wynne, Ade, JayC, Jie ying, and others...haha...first time walk Midvalley alone..the feeling was not bad...went to eat sushi king alone n then think of tat day we eat sushi king together...hmmm miss it...n then buy myself mcFlurry..n then went to MPH to kill time while waiting for movie time..then go watch Step Up 3 with Ade n JayC...it was nice!!..=)

Saturday, went out wif my dear Wynne to Time Square coz she wanna change back her line to digi...=)..yeah!!...n then walk walk awhile finally bought my shoe...my old one was broken for so long dy but i have no time to go buy...hehehe like it!! then we went to Mid valley again..haha to buy Rice cooker though..hehe then straight away go back hostel!! it was tiring but a very happy day..=P..so long didnt go out wif my dear dy...

Sunday, went to church....lunch wif my buddies from Kuching was awesome!!..=)...we should gather n talk more....hehehe n than come back to hostel n go Mid valley wif my dear Wynne again..but this time we go n watch movie de...watch Piranha...omgoodness is was so bloody!! make me feels lik vomiting after watching it...*hmmm hope u r there though..at least i will feel safe when u r around...hmmm...=/*..then we random go n buy pillow n multit purpose cooker...haha..we really decide to be good n cook ourself dy k...=)..

wow come to think of it this holiday i watch a lot of movies dy o...
- Love in disgust
- The last airbender
- The expandable
- Vampire sucks
- Step up 3
- Piranha

haha..never noe i can watch so many movies is such a short time...=P...till here...tata...

I MISS U SO MUCH
MISS ALL THOSE MOMENT WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER
I MISS THE WAY U LOOK AT ME
MAKE ME NOE TAT U CARE ABOUT ME
IF GIVE ME A WISH NOW
I WOULD WISH SWINBURNE IS IN KL
N IS BESIDE MY CAMPUS
HUGSSS

Home!!!!

2010-08-18T16:46:00.002+08:00

hahahahaha...i am HOME!!! yeshy..for a few days dy la..ask y i didnt online?...coz o the house line dun wanna welcome me home so it spoiled on the day i reach home...sad rite?...wat a terrible thingy to happen...only happen when i got home!!! GRRRR!!!!@$#!@#!@#$...nvm i cant blame anyone also geh...home line so long no one use dy spoil or in good condition also no one noe wat rite?..hahaha...so hafta always come out to online lo...tat's y i am always out la...dun scold me lo not my fault...streamyx's fault la...hehehehe...=P

came back on SATURDAY...

went to youth...

everyone was so surprise...

n then went to dinner wif family..

yummy...the home feeling is back...

n then went to buy shoe for bro n then go back home n ROT la...

haha...

SUNDAY

went to church...

n then went to spring...

surprise Chel..

wow...successful...haha..first time successful in surprising ppl..

i thought i always suck in this...

n then go home..

n then go out again la..

went to sushi king wif Tim, Chin hui n Jia liang...

n then meet up wif chel again...

go where?...KCH FEST la!!..

haha..walk walk walk....

n then go Tim house watch movie together la...

hahaha...have a GREAT nite!!..

Kch is so awesomely homely!!...

smile wide wide..=)

MONDAY

owh..rmb..

went to TM wif Li san..

hahaha..

wanna go Durian Ice after tat de..

but ho..it close la..T.T..sad rite?..

haihz...no choice...

hehehe went out wif koko n Jason at nite..

no choice nd wifi to online so...

keep on going out la...

hehehe...

TUESDAY

hmmmm ntg special happened..

wanna bake de...

but no ingredient so...

ROT again la...

my favourite part..ROTTING at HOME...

n then went out wif chel again wif her bf n his sister n Tim..=)

then o...went to kch fest again la..swt...

n then o...went to 175..to feed the fishes wif our smelly feet...

sorry fishy but i noe u guys like it..

ooppss...haha..

n then watch airbender wif them..

n then GO HOME SLEEP LA..

haha...

TODAY

went out wif Li san lo.....

hehehe...we ROT in SPRING...

haha can u imagine...in spring also can ROT..

li hai leh..=p...

rot in KFC for 2 hours..

rot in the cinema..ermm...2 hours also...

n then now...rot in food court..1hour dy...

geng le...hahaha..

we rot everywhere...=P...

going to Prayer meeting tonight!!..

yeah!! pray! pray! pray!..

hmmm wait first think of wat to eat first...

*shivering*

COLD LA!!!...=/

the result of laziness to bring jacket...

haha..

till here...

tata...

I am treasuring those moment wif u

it will be a sweet memory when i leave

i am writing it down

so tat i will never forget

i miss u

Holidays!!!

2010-08-13T16:13:00.002+08:00

hahaha yeah!! final finally finish jor!!

dun wanna think bout it anymore...

i noe i done my best n i am gonna leave the rest to God!!..=)

MY HOLIDAY OFFICIALLY STARTED!!! OH YEAH!! BRING IT ON BABEH!!!

went to Time Square wif my dear Wynne, YY and Cynthia..

hehehe had a great time in Neway singing...

ouch my throat really hurts yesterday..=P

luckily it recover quite fast...

haha..=)...

n then we went shopping after that...

omgoodness...all the dresses is so PRETTY!!..

but got no budget to buy...n is all on SALES!!..

fainted!! haha nvm..luckily i got quite good control to stop myself from shopping..

i would really rather spent on good food!!..

yes call me foody..haha..

then later came back rot in the room awhile..

n then Hian Woon say go his room n play cards..

so went down his room n chat wif Adelene and Teck Kiong..

hahaha..chat chat n chat i forget who say hungry dy..

so went out at to hunt for food..but all close jor..T.T

went to Bangsar in the end..n had satay!!

thanks to Kiong for chia-ing us..hehehe.

n driving us la..

but pity those two though..me n Ade talk till so nice..

they two sit beside eyes wanna close dy..

haha..so came back online awhile then sleep jor..

tired till speechles...

aww..today my dear wynne went to Genting wif our college frens dy..

everyone in hostel go back home dy...

hmmm i am always the last one...

gonna go cell later..hehe..=)

but tonight will be a lonely nite...grrr...

hehehe nvmla..can go back okay dy!!..=)...

i cant wait to go back...

I MISS HOME SO MUCH!!...

I'm coming home...I'm coming home...

ulala..i am so hyper now...

...I am officially missing you...

散了

2010-08-10T14:30:00.003+08:00

感觉上，我们的友谊会因为一个女孩子而散了，

我接受不了那个女的是她，

you deserve a more better girl...

有我就没有她，

所以我帮你选了，

不然你为难，

我消失。

我没有立场说什么，因为我只是你的朋友，

可是朋友做到这样我也心灰意冷了，

我以为，你了解我，

算了，过去的就让它过去吧，

就让那回忆淡淡的随风去....

我暂时不想见到你，

所以我不会去自取其辱，

我再也不会出现在你的世界，

既然你避开我，

我就顺你的意，

不再出现。

谢谢你给的回忆，

我会珍惜的。

可是我还是会不由自主的流泪。

好没用阿！！！

Neutralisms...

2010-08-08T16:25:00.002+08:00

Lols..i am too into all the syllogisms thingy in my CTS textbook...so tis is the "isms" disease i think..hahaha..i cant believe it Sem 2 really is officially overs n finals is going on already...first paper down yesterday..n i can only say i noe i have done my best n gonna leave the rest to God!!..=)...second paper tml...seriously i wont mind to juz finish all the paper in one day n go straight home after tat..i seriously miss home sooooo much!!! i miss my friendssss!! i miss youthh!! and i miss YOU!!..hehe..=P..to tat someone in Kuching...i am coming home soon!!! dun miss me too much!!!..=)...i cant wait to c u though...*hugssss*...

Lols!! went to Redbox on monday to celebrate wif Rach her 19th birthday!! we r all getting old!! hahaha..=P..had fun screaming, laughing, singing and tellin cold jokes...enjoyed all the emo songs..as i am super duper emo bcoz...someone piss me off 2 days before tat..=)...nvm..is a pass tense though...

Is been a week since i cambe back from my 3rd home...but i still cant getting over missing tat place...the impact is too strong..maybe...the memory..the hurtS..the food n the people there is too significant...to tat someone in penang...you have successfully make me suffered for a lot of days..and i totally couldn't blame u for tat..i cant believe tat the minute i came back here u change and become someone else i totally dunno...i am TOTALLY disappointed wif u...n i noe u will never noe..i came back here wif disappointment everytime....okay i juz dun wanna talk about it anymore...all i wanna say is...i am always here if u nd someone to talk to...n i forget how long it has been since the last time i chat wif u....

ARGH!!! okay fine...finally satisfied and ready to study now!!!...=)...Jia you o!!!...fighting!!!...

Finals!! n home!!..=)

2010-08-03T12:53:00.002+08:00

Final is juz 4 days apart..tis is how fast times flies..

sem 2 gonna end soon...

n i am going home!!!!...=)

Lotssss of things happen in sem 2 though...

gone through all mountain top n valleys...

no doubt i have known more frens tis sem too...

one more weeks n sem 2 is gonna end...

it feels lik yesterday when sem 2 juz started...

life changed..perspective changed...feelings changed..

more stress..more emo..more matured though...

life have been a very good teacher...

have strict teaching on me...

n make me more matured over the years...

in an glimpse of eyes 2010 is gonna end soon too...

n i wish it dun end so soon...

i still wanna be regarded as "teens"...

haha..=)..

juz came back from my 3rd home..=)

went to celebrate my mei mei's 17th birthday!!

she was a princess tat day..so pretty...

mei...jiejie am so proud of u...=P

honestly tat day is the happiest day i have in this year..

Thanks to wp...i appreciate everything u have done...

hahaha..i still not over suan-ing u yet okay...=P

oh ya of cuz!! can sit down n have a nice dinner wif my bro n my sista in law is GREAT!!!..

haha..is lik a family reunion..=)

jiejie love u all..!!...*hugsss*

okay tis is kinda late but i still wanna say...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARILYN N RACHEL!!!

haha..hope both of u had fun yesterday...although both of u cant celebrate together..=)...but u r celebrating for each other in different places rite..=)..have a blessed year ahead...n ps..i am still 18..hahaha...=P...xoxosss!!!..*hugsss!!!*

Hmmm...

2010-06-30T13:02:00.004+08:00

while waiting for someone to finish his super duper long "breakfast"...i went to check out my frens blog..haha n i juz realize tat i have been in KL for almost half a year...time really flies..it feels lik yesterday when i first reach here...the memory is still fresh...but i have no idea how our bunch of frens meet together n become who we are today...but i always remember how i met my dear roommate Wynne..she is the first fren i have in this college...hmmm significant le..=P..i will remember her for life...aww...touch le my dear...haha...=P

i really have no idea how i got so much strength to sustain me through all these days here in KL..if is not for God's grace n mercy i wouldn't have have gone through all these so smoothly n although there is time where i fail n when i am deeply depress..God will always remind me tat i am never alone here..He is always here wif me..ask me how come i can smile n feel relax in the mist of all these heavy duty assignment, presentation, exams n research papers...because i have God..i noe He is in control..i am not nervous for presentation?..if i say no is fake de...but y do i seems so clam?..because God have given me the peace n confident i needed..i am glad tat i dun nd to go through everything alone..even though i seems to be alone..but i noe God is everywhere wif me..He protect me from harms...n i noe even though the world turns me down n leave me alone...God will always be there for me..He will never leave me nor forsake me..because HE LOVES ME..=)...

INDEED, THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH!!...

After mid term!!!

2010-06-30T01:45:00.002+08:00

hmmm...have been soooooooo lazy to write so....

i guess tis post will be a very long one...

hehehe...bare wif me though...=P...

was studying lik mad for mid term...

n saving money so eat bread for a week plus...

n end up..my gastric play games wif me..=)

how nice rite?..learn my lesson la....

haha am so happy tat mid term finishes last week

n i got a few days of holidays in Penang..

hehehe happy happy...

went to Penang wif Adelene, YY n Soo Ting..

but we went in the same bus..

stay at different place..

hang out wif Ade for one day..

accidentally met YY for a few minutes..

didnt c Soo Ting at all..

n we all come back in different bus..

except me n Ade..haha..so nice rite..

spent time wif bro n sis there..

have a good time n lotsss of bad time..sorry la is kinda the truth..hehe..

coz.....i dun wanna say..u all noe y...hehe...

gonna miss them so much...

coz i dunno went will be the next time i go...T.T

awww i miss gurney drive..make me sit there whole nite also no problems..=P

okay..holidays end..fun end...suffering starts...=.='''

english research paper due next week...

human com n markint term paper due next next week...

quiz 2 is anytime...

final is soon...

but tat means i am going home soon!!!...

hehe happy!!

cant wait to go home!!!...

kinda love tis songs...the way the singer sings it...is lik u can feel the strong sadness..tat's y i lik it..emo song ba..hehehe...

终于找到借口趁着醉意上心头

表达我所有感受

寂寞渐浓沉默留在舞池角落

你说的太少或太多

都会让人更惶恐

谁任由谁放纵谁会先让出自由

最后一定总是我

双脚悬空在你冷酷热情间游走

被侵占所有还要笑着接受

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹

像个人气高居不下的天后

你要的不是我而是一种虚荣

有人疼才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容

成全了你万众宠爱的天后

若爱只剩诱惑只剩彼此忍受

别再互相折磨

因为我们都有错

推开苍白的手推开苍白的厮守

管你有多么失措

别再叫我心软是最致命的脆弱

我明明都懂却仍拼死效忠

如果有一天爱不再迷惑

足够去看清所有是非对错

直到那个时候你在我的心中

将不再被歌颂把你当作天后

不会再是我

Tired...

2010-06-16T01:16:00.003+08:00

hmmm...admit..extremely LAZY to write my blog..

but today got mood to write becoz...

i am moody...

hahaha...not funny...

hmmm...i am so super tired...

although i didnt do anything...

i am so tired bout everything here in KL..

i miss home so much...

i miss my family...

i miss all my besties...

mid-term is tis saturday...

n wat can i do other than study n study n study now?...

everyone seems so busy...

MSN got on lik no on lik tat...

so cold cold de...got ppl to chat lik no ppl to chat...

"slap myself" okay yvonne STOP complaining...

Paiseh..i am still learning...bare wif me..

I noe even though i am in the valley now...

but i am not afraid to climb up to the mountain top again..

coz i noe God is always here wif me..

He will never leave me nor forsake me..=)..

He make me smile in the midst of my moodiness..

He gave me peace when i am scared..

He comfort me when i feel so lonely n miss my family..

He is there for me when i can talk to no one...

God will always be there when we have NOTHING left...

"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything... (Philippians 4:6a)"

06.06

2010-06-06T20:39:00.002+08:00

wat a nice date today 06.06

soooo lazy to write my blog...

sorry blog...left u alone so long...=P

hmmm have been so tired tis few weeks..

miss home..miss my parents...miss my siblings...miss my foster siblings..

went to CoUZ camp for 3 days last week n it was awesome!!..Thank God tat i went to the camp..it change my life n bring me closer to God..n really THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH..=)..at the end of the camp i realize how long i didnt smile from my heart dy..n in the camp God make me smile again..i am so happy n so hyper..i rejoice in the Lord's presence..is so good to juz take few days off without worrying bout assignments, classes, foods, wordly thingy...is so relax n indeed when u trust God in everything u do He wont short change u...i feel so light when i come back from camp..i think i can fly..i feel lik i am reborn again...wif a big smile on my face..=)..God grace is always sufficient for us!!..=)...awww...i MISS THE CAMP!!..I miss everyone!!..

hmm then come back from camp..have to rush 3 assignment together...i almost went crazy...struggling though..when u have too much in mind..sometimes ur thought will fight..i got kinda discourage..coz is the assignment is really tough...but then God remind me again tat He is my strength so i tell God..I dun care anymore..i wont let the pressure kill me..I will juz do my best n leave the rest to Him...u noe after i pray tis prayer..i got sooooooooo relief...i can juz smile..=)...slow down my pace in work..but i manage to finish all three..=)...haha ppl i find a good way to calm urself before presentation..especially when u r the last one..close ur eyes...focus on God..sing song to Him..dun worry bout ur points..coz when u stand up there u will realize God is working within u..n somehow u will only rmb the main points..n tat's the most important thingy in presentation..=)...have faith in Him!!..

Lols mid term coming soon..gonna really study hard..is never gonna be easy lik sem 1 again but i wont let the excuses defeat my confident..gonna study hard, do my best n trust in God!!..

ooppss.s.s.s...

2010-05-22T12:23:00.004+08:00

Lols i forget how long i didnt write my blog dy...

is so quiet...

haha...i am so lazy to write la...

still prefer sleeping than writing blog..

ya..no a days...

sleeping is a need...

coz i am so lack of sleeping time!!!...

ya..quite true...

goodness..assignment..quiz..midterm...presentation...

n soon would be finals!!!...

my goodness fainted!!!

really have to be good n start studying!!!...

hehe...went out quite often too these days..

wanna enjoy before all the pressure n stress get me..

when to ss2 wif wan yee that day..

n then went Cheras night market..

n then we went crazy n go K at midnight..siao wan..told u yvonne cannot get over stress up..i will gone crazy..haha..

then came to Penang again for the 2nd time..

miss my bro n sis..

no choice..

hehe so i came again...

somehow Penang feels lik home to me too..

since i cant go back to Kch every week..

Penang is my 3rd home..=)...my 2nd home is hostel dy..=P

maybe coz Penang got siblings gua..tat's y feels lik home...

but cannot come so often dy assignment n exams is pressing my pressure button ON..

nvm..i will miss them...=)

oh ya went crazy yesterday n watch Nightmare on Elm's Street wif my bro n WP

goodness...is so horror k..i mean ya is suppose to be horror...haha

wasted again lo ask me watch horror movie coz i will juz hide under my jacket n scream..haha

pity those 2 who sit beside me..always kena hit by me..who ask u all always come n scared me..

hehehe..enjoying Penang... treasuring the moment i have wif my bro n sis..=)..

jiejie love u all..=)

Sem 2!!!

2010-05-11T18:41:00.002+08:00

Lols...i have been so lazy to write my blog...
Sem 2 started...
n i kinda lik my crazy timetable..
coping well i think...
is not as easy as i thought..
is gonna be challenging..
but i am not gonna give up..=P
many many things have happened all these while..
happy, sad, disappointed, excited.....
haha...basically learning to manage my life well...

went to Penang n met my beloved bro n sis...
jiejie miss u all....x333333
thanks for the time spent wif jiejie..
luvvsss...
promise gonna visit u all soon...
hmmm starting to love Penang more...
awww...i miss fried kueh tiaw...
n i miss busy-finding-the-road time..
haha so funny...=P

Permai!!!

2010-04-26T17:04:00.002+08:00

hehe...went Camp Permai wif my buddies yesterday...hehe
have lots n lots of fun...
took lots of pics...
haha...bullied Timmy n Chin Hui...
satisfied dy...
feel lik form 5 again...
the feeling of a class...
tat we all belong together in a class...
haha...n than went steamboat together!!!
Lols...so so long didnt have steamboat dy...
Hometown de steamboat is the best!!!
We all cant even move after the big meal..
so so full!!..haha..
love Kuching so much...
thx guys for a fun n memorable memory...
I noe is hard for us to all meet again..
bcoz of works n studies...
but i appreciate the time we spent together...=)...
promise the next sem break we will go out again!!!
grin wide wide...

Movie!!

2010-04-22T00:01:00.003+08:00

hehe...
went out wif Li San today..
went Spring..
ate Sushi King
watched ICE KACANG PUPPY LOVE
nice nice..=)...so touching...=P
then went prayer meeting..
then went out wif Diana n Rach..
have girl's talk..
likey likey...
dunno y so tired today..
Lols...
went out wif Ichel, Ah Chaw, Jia Liang n Chin Hui the other day
went to lots of places...ermm..sort of lots..
went to waterfront..
wow..become so nice after renovation
quite shock..
lots of new things..
i cant wait to explore...

wondering how r u doing there..
feel so far apart..
i miss you..

Kuching!!!

2010-04-20T13:24:00.002+08:00

I am homed for 2 days..=)...
sosososososo happy to be back home...
so excited to do all the housework...
but getting lazy slowly...
hahaha...
drove out today to fetch ma sista from tuition
come back sound n safe...
mission accomplish
i still noe how to drive..
*grin*

but another part i felt so terrible...i couldn't accomplish the task my friends entrusted me...I AM REALLY SO SORRY MY FRIENDS!!!...i didnt mean to failed u all...i am juz so sorry...T.T...

Home...

2010-04-18T11:33:00.002+08:00

I am coming home...i am coming home...i am coming home...

hahaha...gonna reach home in a few hours....it should be a surprise...cant wat to c my parents n friends...=)...wasting my time in LCCT...=P...hmmm start missing my friend lik crazy already...i bet when i get home i will have no internet...will get it fix n online again..till there...c u ppl...dear Wan Yee ar...dun miss me too much k...i noe i will miss u a lot...haha...=P...luvvsss...

Final done!!!

2010-04-17T01:14:00.003+08:00

hahaha...so happy that i have finally done my final!!1...i noe i have done my best n i am gonna leave the rest to God...=)

So my last paper was until 3.30pm on wednesday...n after that we started our craziness...Lols...came back to hostel...bath n change...we when straight to Midvalley...they bought the ticket for " HOW TO TRAIN UR DRAGON " dy so okaylo..we went to food court wait for them to eat than we go in for movie...the movie was nice..i lik it...toothless...haha its so cute...than we went to walk around n i end up wif Jieying n Wigo only coz the rest went arcade n some went shopping..n i am not the arcade type of girl forgive me ya...n my purse that day dun allow me to shop so i better save...=)...n surprisingly i did save a bit..Lols..n than they actually bought another ticket for " CLASH OF THE TITANS " i dunno wanna comment bout it..but is not my type of movie...anyway the movie is at 10pm so we have LOTSS of time to kill we went dinning in The Chicken Rice Shop...n is okay...quite nice...my first time in that shop...than we went Jusco buy our sandwich material for the next day trip...than we went movie than came back n sleep...

the next day...which is Thursday...we went Sunway Lagoon!! haha...after so long...i actually went there again...=P...can say i enjoyed myself...but the pirate ship really freak me out...as it is my first time...no thank you for the 2nd time...i guess i didnt got my mummy's adventurous's gene..i prefer the water game...splash me wif water...ulala...i lik it...spent half day there n we didnt even notice time is flying so fast we got change n went to pyramid to hunt for food...yes use hunt coz we r all craving for food..hungry lik anything...apparently our sandwiches didnt last us long enough..but we had a good day...cannot deny that...i love u all!!!..=)...owh..i finally found which shop the small doughnut came from...happy...

than today lo...Friday....dun lik dun lik....they all went back to their hometown already la...left me nia...so sad....so was gonna plan to go Midvalley myself already since i have to buy bottles for my brothers..so i tried to text Yvette i didnt noe she is not in...=/...then i fb-ed Adelene n she say she is here in residence..i am so happy than ask her wanna follow me or not..n she say yes!!!..grin wider..=P..we went n buy my bottles n than we was discussing what to eat for lunch...hmmmm...finally we decided to go for.............our long lost sushi............so we went Sushi King n have a satisfied meal...=P....love it also...Lols...than walk around awhile n came back...sleep for a few hours...n i juz realise that i give Adelene the wrong room number...she wanted YY's i give her mine..so funny...sorry Adelene...had fun in cell tpday...have great laugh n learn a lot too!!!...

OUR GOD IS GREAT AND AWESOME!!!...=)

missing you so much..
the fear of sleeping alone in hostel is too strong..
how good if u r here..
how good if u juz can be here to be wif me..
to cuddle me..
to tell me that it is okay..
to tell me that everythings gonna be alright..
to sing me lullaby so that i can sleep..

2 down 3 to go..Jia you lo..

2010-04-11T14:27:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA...i got a big announcement!!! Is officially Final's week!!!...okay count me as crazy...study until crazy dy...Lols...quote Jieying..too much input to the brain and it hang at last when we nd it so much...

Juz came back from church..and cant deny tat church is the most comfortable place...where i can juz be myself without doubt...n because God's presence is so strong there...=)...

You are my strength when i am weak
You are the treasure that i seek
You are my all in all
Seeking You as a Precious Jewel
Lord to give up i will be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

so long didnt sing this song already...remind me of CJ when we would do the action of this song while we singing...aww...i miss home so much...share another nice song...

Jesus, Beautiful Savior, God of all majesty
Risen King, Lamb of God
Holy and Righteous, Blessed redeemer
Bright morning star
All the Heaven shout Your praise
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, How Beautiful
Name about every name
Exalted high
How wonderful, How Beautiful
Jesus Your name
Name above every name
Jesus

Lols..got at split second i thought i was back in my own church in hometown...aww...nvm...i am coming back soon...soon = to very soon...=P..dun be surprise to c me though...i am very eager to go back home...counting the days to go home...but have to finish my finals first...the...3 more papers...gambateh!! can de la...i will conquer and pass maths this time with the help of the Lord..=)..smile..

" For I can do everything with the help of Christ who give me strength I need. "

Philippians 4:13

Missing you in the mist of exam..

Blessed Easter people!!

2010-04-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

Hehe..today is Easter Sunday!!..happy happy happy day...smile..=)...
Went to church today...my dear Wynne follow me to church today..happy happy...
I love the atmosphere at church today..is so warm n nice...
n today a sentence of a song's lyrics hit right on the face...

"although i always failed You
but You still love me the same"

can't describe how i feel right there n then...
feel so loved...n i am not alone...=)
feel lik life is making a joke wif me..
sometimes is so hard to pass through..
sometimes it juz pass by without i myself even noeing it..
haha but i really thank God for everything He have provided for me everyday..
Without Him i dunno how my life gonna be lik..

I’m forgiven because You were forsaken,

I’m accepted, You were condemned.

I am alive and well, Your spirit is within me,

Because You died and rose again.

Amazing love, How can it be

That You, my King, should die for me?

Amazing love, I know it’s true.

It’s my joy to honor You,

In all I do, I honor You.

realise that i finally have the braveness to admit my own weaknesses n failure i made in the pass..everything i blame on another person..now i think of it..i should share some of the blame too..because when problem n conflicts arise..it wont be one person only..u nd another person to have problem wif n u nd another person to have conflicts wif..haha..tat is so true..=)..really have to learn to FORGIVE AND MOVE ON PEOPLE!!..

haha..
i am trying not to think of u as much these days
but it is not tat easy as i thought it could be
to forget u is a goal i set since years ago
but wat did i achieve after so many yrs
u r still the one in my heart
tell me how can i forget u
i tried all the ways
i tried to keep a distance wif u
i tried to not pay attention on ur news
i tried to ignore u
i tried to treat u as a fren only
i tried to not to be good to u
i tried to be harsh n mean
but in the end..
i turned one round n went back to the starting point
i failed tremendously
wat can i do now?

counting down the days to go home...

2010-04-03T22:06:00.002+08:00

Lols...today sleep until natural wake up...nice le...tat's y i lik saturday...but ho saturday also reminds me tat FINAL is coming soon...soon means very soon okay...is exactly 1 week away...aiks..so sien...have to really study from now!!...i dun wanna fail anything coz i dun wanna repeat anything next sem!!...haha went to have roti canai at Ali Maju wif my dear Wynne tis afternoon...actually we eat brunch n not lunch..coz we miss breakfast dy when we wake up...haha..tat's y today seems so short...haha...feel lik juz finish my brunch n already have to think wat to eat for dinner...brainstorm so long n finally decided to cook myself la...cheaper ma..=P..hehe..cook spaghetti...first time use different brain de sauce but still nice..only the sauce became not so tasty..too much water la..hehe...n than Wynne cook Tong sui for us..so xin fu neh got ppl cook for me...haha...=P...still waiting to eat Jieying's sushi...

emotionless today..choose not to think n kick away everything..juz wanna enjoy my saturday..i am coming home soon!!..tat makes me study harder coz i wanna go home soon..Final i am coming to defeat u!!..i wont let u defeat me..hehe..=)...YEAH!! going church tml!!...love it love the though of going to church!!...smile..=)..

Officially liking Fang Da Tong's- Red Bean

还没好好的感受，雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖，会更明白，什么是温柔
还没跟你牵着手，走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后，学会珍惜，天长和地久

有时候，有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开，都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆，熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享，会更明白，相思的哀愁
还没好好的感受，醒着亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右，你才追求，孤独的自由

=）tomorrow will be a sunny day..

Quiz + Oral = Quizoral

2010-04-03T00:15:00.002+08:00

Lols so random the title..hahaz...btw i am so relief that my oral n computing quiz is over..=P...n yet i am worried bout the marks that i am going to get...Lols..nvm..over dy...throw it to the deep blue sea n forget bout it..

went out wif my dear Wynne, Jayshee Toh and Jieying today...haha...scold us crazy we went to 1U after quiz today...we haven't even step out of hostel it start raining cats n dogs...so minus mood de...the first shop i went is of cuz popular la wif my dear..our favourite shop wat..haha..n than ho we went to eat la wat else..hehe...at some Taiwanese shop...quite nice though the food..than we continue to complain broke la no money la n yet we still went to shop..this nice la that nice la..wanna buy this la wanna buy that la...haha...but in the end...all WINDOW SHOP la!!...n i HATE window shop...i dun lik it when i lik something but i cant afford to buy it..it is better that u dun let me c it...swt...than ho..cannot buy stuff rite so went to eat again lo..haha...release stress plus + weight lo..the nicest liao...went to have "tong sui"...Lols talk a lot n spent a lot of time there...is dangerous to let girls sit down n talk because they usually dun keep track of time...haha...ya n then we go walk around again n than ho we end up in some waffle shop start talking again..haha..is all bout food today...

tired i am so tired today...coz i slept at 1am last nite n wake up at 5am tis morning..killing me...when i wake up i saw the eye bag i was lik ssshhhisss...can hang clothes already...okayla...lazy write i am really very tired!!...tml better dun wake me up before 10am..i wanna sleep until natural wake up la...hehe...saturday is my precious sleeping time day...

y did i deserve to be treated coldly by u?..
y did i deserve to be ignored by u?..
u noe how it feels lik when hopes r shattered?..
i choose to run away again..
scold me stupid..
but i noe u will always have a good image in my heart..
i choose to believe in u..
although i noe i am not the one..
i am not the one that belongs to u..

有时候，有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开，都有时候
没有什么能永垂不朽
可是我有时候
宁愿选择不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我，看细水长流

No feeling...

2010-04-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

I found out that i am pretty abnormal these days...i found myself not nervous on a week or a day before presentations n exams..which i am suppose to be nervous plus i should feel the stress n pressure...but ntg comes to me these days...since i enter college...i feel ntg...i am starting to question myself where did all my emotion goes?...have i lost all my emotions?...no ar...because i still noe how to emo plus i still noe how to miss ppl n love ppl...hmmm....dangerous...hmmm i nd some stress n pressure to put myself into studies n exams!!!...yvonne!!!..wake up!!...*slap, slap*...i only hope i will do my best tml and i will really have to leave the rest to God!!...i am such a helpless girl...no feelings at all...i am trying to scared myself to push myself to study now...i dun think i am gonna sleep tonight...prepare everything to stay awake dy...supper n water...Lols..since i dunno how to drink coffee...

i noe i will start to feel nervous when i am in class tml...believe me...i will shiver...but i wont let nervousness let me down...i noe no matter wat God is always there wif me n i noe that He will help me n He will send His Holy Spirit to teach me wat to say n be calm on the oral stage...smile yvonne!!...God lovess you!!!...=)...

Gambateh ppl!!...

really hope tat u r beside me now..
i dun wanna study alone..
i nd i shoulder to lean on..
i am tired of the lifes here..
i nd a pause..
i nd some rest..
i nd ur attention..
i nd ur care..
i nd ur love..
i nd to noe that u r missing me..
i nd to noe that u r aware that there is someone call yvonne here..
which i noe u wont give me any of that..
i miss the freedom in high skul..
i miss those old days..
i am missing all the memories we had..
i am treasuring it..
n i will never forget it..

Randomness...

2010-03-27T00:18:00.002+08:00

计程车上的影响，我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏
夜深了我怎么办，寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂，想他念他恨他
一个人你害怕吗，细数过漫天星光
说好永远不分开，多假多假多假

深呼吸一分钟，爱突然的词穷
你狠狠摔开我沉默的手仿佛就剧终
草戒指在手中，像句点的沉默
明天以后，爱变成了问候
爱不爱都痛，我以为我懂
最后你要自由，忘了温柔要套在手中
到最后，该不该回头
如果我开口，爱继续往前走
幸福听着分开的借口
草戒指套在谁的手中

我愛他轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞都不肯醒來

我愛他跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他不再屬於這個地方
最初的天堂最終的荒唐

我愛他轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴越多的空白
該怎麼去愛

我学着不去担心得太远　

不计画太多，反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天，快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙，但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　
我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤融化

Cell dinner!!

2010-03-27T00:01:00.001+08:00

went out wif my dear Wynne today to Time Square and we basically walk all the floors already and i found ntg for myself except a T-shirt...tired of shopping...coz i can wear ntg...anywayz...have fun K-ing wif my dear though...haha...i keep on calling her my dear ppl would think we r Les already...btw...both of us r straight okay...no worries...enjoyed our 2 ppl's world..finally have a chance to "date"...haha...ooppss...now it sound very wrong...dun care...=P

then went out again wif my cell member...have dinner at Picadilly i dunno how it is spell...forgive me..haha...have a great time with them...laughing so hard...tell lame joke n i keep on kacau-ing Beatrice until she cannot stand...dunno y i talk so much tonight...look lik a super crazy girl...haha...once in awhile is healthy...tat's wat it call release tension...haha...

of all the fun i have it should be a sunny day today...but is still a thunderstorm in a sunny day...i am so tired thinking bout everything...

i am tired thinking bout wat is ur opinion about me...
i am tired of guessing wat r u thinking now...
i am juz tired thinking bout u...
but i cant help but think bout u...
tat's how helpless i am...
i never feel so tired before...
n u successfully gave me another sleepless nite...
thx to u...
i am suppose to be anti u...
so tat i can forget u...
but wat have i done?...
i juz cant get over u...
scold me stupid...
urgh...
tired...
but not sleepy...

Storm..='(

2010-03-25T17:25:00.002+08:00

Its thunderstorm outside...the thunder is so loud that i am afraid my window would juz break...i was suppose to take a nap but in the end i am wide awake when my alarm remind me is time to wake up...never felt scared of thunder before but today sitting alone in my hostel room listening and watching the thunder make me think of so many things...n make me look at myself n feel so lonely...but i noe no matter how lonely i think i am...God is always here wif me...=)..tat's the greatest comfort of all...it makes me smile n tears juz fall from my eyes...GOD is so GOOD to US!!..

Juz wish u r here wif me when the thunder strike..
I'm cuddling myself n make myself think tat..
you would be worried bout me there...
although we r far apart..
but i noe u will think..
of me sometimes..

Quizes : 2 down 2 more to go...

2010-03-24T21:16:00.003+08:00

ahaha...guess wat tml is MATHS QUIZ 2...haha..i am so "happy"...Lols...dun wish to fail my maths this time coz these chapters is consider more easier than the first few chapter....oh God please help me...juz finish my Eng and M'sia Studies quiz yesterday..both i came out early...dunno how did i done it..hope it wont be bad....*cross fingers*...dun wanna repeat any subject...please....

aiks aiks...haha so last sunday Jon Lee sent me n John back to hostel wif Rach in the car...guess wat BLACKIE rolled out of the car n we all didnt notice it until Jon Lee text me n i basically run down praying that it is still there if not i will be so guilty n gone crazy...haha...n thanks to Jon Lee accusation it look so lik my fault now that blackie roll out of the car...dang...haha..Lols..but I noe la actually he jealous i can have blackie the whole week..haha..=P

swt..i should be studying for maths de instead of writing blog here...but i cant stand it la so long didnt update...dunno y today got the mood to blog!!..but is okay FINALS is coming n it means i am going home soon!!...aiks 2 more presentation n Finals n my SEM 1 will officially come to an end...but i hope i pass the sub...dun wish for HD but i juz wanna pass the sub...dun wanna retake anything...have to work hard le...yvonne never studied so serious n so hard in her life before but before she came to college she already noe she have to change her way of studying..no more playing, fooling around n day dreaming anymore!!...

gambateh!!...jia you neh!!..=)

This song make me smile when i heard it on Sunday..is lik reminding me God is always here for us!!..love it to the max...

God will make a way
When it seems to be no way
He works in ways
We cannot see
He will make a way for me

He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love n strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

missing you like crazy...
day n night i c ur shadow appearing in my mind...
i thought i could forget you...
but the more effort i put in the more i miss u...
everything i do...
somehow it all related to u...
tell me...
how could i ever forget u lik tis?...
i am drowning myself...
into a trap that i can never climb up again...

Over at Rach's place...

2010-03-21T09:31:00.005+08:00

Lols...is sunday!!..lovely...will go to church soon...n i noe i will love it...=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CERISE!!!

haha...came to Rach's place last nite we went to eat steamboat and surprise John for his birhtday! Lols i came wif him the whole way from damansara to subang he didnt realise that i am Fion's spy for his surprise...when he noe tat i noe everything his face expression is so funny okay...haha...once n for all i can kacau him...=P...had a good dinner there though..oh ya the shop is call Yuen Steamboat and oh my goodness the chicken wing there is superb...no other word can describe it...ppl literally fight to get it okay..i promise u in less than 1 minute the whole buffet tray full of chicken wing is gone...we got a lot though coz John is fast n another Jon is learning the skill from him...haha..stay over at Rach place..we watch a movie call When Henry Meet Sally...so funny..oh ya juz find out is an 1987 movie...and now is 2010...cool le..Lols...

Quiz and Assignment is coming up all together this time...have to really work hard n put my head into book after this...nvmla..left few weeks than i can go home...=)...yeah...so put that as my goal...and i will have all the strength to work hard...miss everyone back home...i am coming back soon!!!..

how i wish u will suddenly appear in front of me

to give me surprise

and say tat actually u have feelings for me too

i miss u

miss u more when frens r talking bout boyfrens

i noe u r not mine

but i noe

at least somewhere in the small corner

of your heart

u have a place for me

and sometimes

in the day

u miss me too

Update awhile lo...

2010-03-17T21:47:00.001+08:00

so long didnt write blog dy...feel so sorry to my blog...haha...didnt "peduli" it so long already...argh...dunno wat to write dy lo....hmmm i try my best to recall k?...haha

sunday....went to church...Church is always the best place!!..no doubt...=)...hmmm but suddenly feel sick in between the sermon...maybe the weather too hot n i am lack of water gua...got fever after that...n than went to lunch wif Beatrice they all...good lo i still drink ice-milo...and sweet n sour chicken rice...haha...then sleep for the whole day...literally dunno anything juz sleep lik pig...then my fren they all come to my room to cook dinner lo...good lo...i cant eat..so sad....but have fun wif them la...although i sleep most of the time..haha..wonder how i have fun le...hehe...then my dear Wynne still make Ho Yan Ho herbal tea for me le...she noe i stubborn dun wanna eat medicine...aiyo...i so "gan dong" u noe...hehe...thanks la dear dear...=P...

monday...supposingly i should be sleeping in the hostel de lo...but i decided to go to college la...not afford to miss english...Lols...then ar..after english plus maths class i go back hostel n.......SLEEP LA!!!...haha...then wake up at 7 something almost 8...eh...everyone not in...then text my dear she say she pack porridge for me dy le!!!...really "gan dong" dao la...Lols...hearts her lotttssss la....

then ar i forget when i went out wif my dear and Yvonne and Yvette dy...i think is saturday...haha cant deny we have a good time together...we crazy already one...haha...miss those time....we will go 1U again okay...go crazy again...=P...

aiks...lazy write dy lo...sien-ness...still have cough n flu...y ar....fever gone dy i happy then flu come...sien...noe it always lik tat one...i noe myself too well...so hard to recover lo everytime...sien....nvmla...aiks....

aiks...i dunno wat to do dy...
in a minute u can make me so happy...
lik flying to the sky...
but the next minute u can disappoint me...
lik dropping me straight from the sky...
but wat to do...
my mind has chosen to forget u...
but my heart cannot do it...
there is always space for u...
anytime...
anywhere...

Sunday!!

2010-03-07T20:46:00.002+08:00

haha is sunday...and normally sunday is the day i enjoyed..n today is still the same...i love sunday...miss Marilyn and Rach...didnt c them today...will see them soon though i noe..=P..
hmmm finally i got the lyrics right today..love this chorus...it always makes me smile & it make me cried today also as the Pastor as us to reflect on our fear and he say dun go back to that memory alone but ask Jesus to go back wif u...God is so great!!...feel kinda relief after crying...

amazing grace how sweet the sound
that save a wretch like me
I once was lost but now i am found
was blind but now i see

#my chains are gone
i have been set free
my God my Savior
has ransom me
and like a flood his mercy reign
unending love
AMAZING GRACE!

really love the chorus part...it always make me smile ppl...=)

I see you in my dream today,
you are so good to me,
we enjoyed the beach together,
but i noe is juz a dream,
you will never do that for me,
on my birthday,
is juz a dream that wont come true,
but is enough,
at least i got a sweet dream,
to hold on to.

One U!!!

2010-03-07T00:10:00.003+08:00

HAha...juz called Marilyn and she say she is in KUCHING already!! argh...Marilyn i envy u so much u noe...blek...hehe...=)...anywayz..went to 1U today so happy...went K again...yeah!! release tension...love it...shouldn't have learn to go K at the first place...but haha..is lik tat de la...juz have to noe how to control myself lo...hehe...oh ya...the first song that come into my head today is

set us apart for You,
set us apart for You,

&

You are the centre of it all
The universe declare it all
Your majesty I surrender all
I make You the centre of my life
Lord i respond with all I am
You place in me the song od Heaven's melody

Lols bought a new shoe today...ermm...i bought it because i spoil mine okay...i wear until the besi also come out dy and is poking my feet...so i have to change shoe...blek...sad case...my favourite slipper broke already la...my bestest slipper of all la...love it...i still keep it okay...tak sampai hati wanna throw it away...=P...going to church tomorrow!!...looking forward to it!!..can't wait!!!...but Marilyn not here la...kinda not fun!!..c Marilyn u so important k!!..haha...have fun at home...luvss..

Talalalala...

2010-03-02T16:20:00.003+08:00

Hahaha..i am having my Malaysian Studies's presentation tomorrow and i am still sitting here writing my blog...Lols...brave isn't it...i dun feel nervous and is absolutely NOT normal for me coz i am not the type who can speak confidently in front of people....lalalala....dun care dy la...i done my part and i am juz gonna do my best..=)...Praise the Lord!!...dunno y today my mind keep playing all the Christian's songs and i am happy about it..haha...i am so cheerful the whole day of today...kinda excited but dunno excited for wat...and surprisingly i can focus on every class i am in today...literally paying attention wor...amazing le...hehe...Thank God for everything though...=)...The first song that came to my mind today was.....

Let me be a part of what You're doing,
sanctified my hands, my heart, my mind,
I want to stand in purity and righteousness,
This life is all for You we cry,

Open up the heaven, pour down all Your Love,
Set this generation, Apart for You,

And then another song is....
I forget..Lols...
cant recall really..
will write again when i remember...
hehehe...such a bad memory...=P...

His Amazing Grace is Forever and Ever!!

2010-03-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

Forget to write this in juz now...
this song touch me on Sunday in Church..
Church is always the best place...
and is always a home...=)

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound
That save a wretch like me,
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind but now i see.

My chains are gone,
I've been set free,
My God My Savior,
Has ransom me,
and like a fire,
His mercy reign,
Amazing love,
Amazing grace.

=)...forgive me if some part of the lyrics is wrong...cant remember all of them...it really juz knock me when they sing this song...make me smile in the mist of all the problems...indeed his Amazing grace is always there for us....Thank you God!...

March lo!!!

2010-03-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

Haha..is march lo...first dayof March ntg special happened..=P...yeaps...mid-term is over n holidays is over also la...T.T....second half od sem 1 have started and i am looking forward to finish sem 1 as soon as possible...=P...hehehe...i wanna go home soon...April is so soon i noe n final is near..haha...i am glad tat God is always here wif me...=)...loves...

the feeling of playing msg u is getting stronger n stronger
but i dunno wat to type n i dunno wat can we chat
i am so lost for word but i noe even though
we dun talk so often n so much
but somehow somewhere
inside you, you miss me
like i do here

Computing done!!...

2010-02-19T11:14:00.003+08:00

YEAH!!!...finally done my computing assignment...haha...Big thanks to my groupmate who have done so much...=)...i finally can sleep with no worries....but still have Malaysian studies one okay...wait till i finish mid-term la...have to study lottss and tonnss...aiks aiks...still in College computer lab now...wanna go feasting later...BECAUSE I ACTUALLY FINISH MY ASSIGNMENT ALREADY!!!...haha crazy one nvm...dun peduli me...=P...will write again later if i am hardworking enough..hehehe...

hmmm...wondering wat r u doing...

missing u lots...

you are the only reason...

i shed my tears...

on the day i left for studies...
you'll never noe...
how hard issit for me to step into the plane...
because i noe...
i will be so far away from u...
starting tat second...

4th day of CNY

2010-02-17T22:02:00.002+08:00

okay..end up i dun have time to blog in Kch ya...too busy going out...haha...now..back to KL...feel so homesick since the time i board the plane...until now when i reach hostel i still feel so homesick..maybe tis time not the same coz i am missing someone n of cuz my family n i haven't finish visiting okay!!!...haha..anything...have a great 3 days at home..kinda miss my bed...Lols..i miss my youth!!...they ROCKSS!!!...luv them to the max...=P..okay lazy write...got computing assignment to FINISH....n MD TERM IS ON SATURDAY!!!...CONGRATULATE ME...hahaha...XD

missing you lik crazy..
dunno what's in ur mind..
but i noe at least i occupied..
a little conner of ur heart it might ..
be small but at least i noe there is still..
space for me..

Chinese New Year Eve!!!

2010-02-13T23:32:00.002+08:00

hahaha...ya is chinese new year eve!!!...n ya...yesterday all my frens went back to their hometown n left me all alone in Hostel...very good rite?...hahaha...i basically lock myself in the room for the whole day...ya is WHOLE DAY never go out...got la...minus the buy food n class part..=P..now i am in my fren's cousin house...their dog is super cuteeeeee!!! cant stand it u noe...ya yvonne is saying tat DOG is cute and i survive the whole day in a house full of doggies n surprisingly I AM STILL ALIVE!!!...hahaha...okay la...till here...super lazy to write...i will blog in KUCHING tml!!...Nitez ppl...HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!...

since is chinese new year so everything RED...haha...

You have no idea how much i miss you
everytime i think of you
my heart ache..
coz i noe you are thinking of someone
and that would never be me!

2nd week of February

2010-02-10T13:36:00.002+08:00

Phew..finally..all the quizzes is over haha...actually only 3 sub...but got assignment all due at the same time also the same de la...got one due today..i end up going in class late coz of tat stupid assignment but is my own fault la...realise things is wrong so late..aiks..hehe but i am FREE now!!..which is...a few days only okay..sad..COMPUTING ASSIGNMENT DUE NEXT FRIDAY!!!...ya...which me n Marie only started the questionnaire and introduction only...how i wish i pick Graphic Software tat time...urgh...is okay la...actually Security Software is not hard is only complicated because it is almost the same which Anti-virus Software...aiks...nvmla..haha..i will do it at HOME..yes is HOME this time...not HOSTEL!!..hehe..coz i am going home VERY SOON!!..CHINESE NEW YEAR juz few days away...but honestly dun feel the mood coz...AFTER CNY IS MID-TERM!!!...who have the mood to celebrate?..swt...but i get to go home tat's the part i am waiting n actually craving...hehe...miss home miss mummy and daddy..miss all my bro n sis...miss all my friends la..n i miss C-factor!!1...oorah!!...cant wait to c them...argh!!!...okay..chill Yvonne...is Wednesday already...hehe...the next thing u will be home eating cookies...hehe...can't wait!!...but buy airticket too late this time so hafta MISS REUNION DINNER for the FIRST FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE...SO SAD!!!...but is okayla...coz HEARTS UNITED is having our Chinese New Year Dinner tonight...haha...cell is a family also okay...coz..we are one family in God...=)...tat's the thing i am so grateful at...I am so glad tat i am a child of God...so no matter where we go...as long as there is church we will feel like home...hehe...

aiks...i think i kinda fail my money management again...coz i feel broke again..i have 0.00 in my purse now literally...empty...aiks...so sad...is okay...after CNY no more shopping...so can save...hehe..n dun eat alot!!!!...ya i eat a lot...n when u start studying u nd food...to make u study..haha...tat's me..but not everytime la...still can't wait to go home...i wan my kitchen...i wanna cook!!!...save a lot of money la cooking...how i wish i can move my kitchen here also...haha..anything la...stop here...tata..=)

Hmmm although i dunno what r u thinking..
But i know somewhere somehow..
Deep inside your heart..
You miss me also..

February

2010-02-02T23:45:00.004+08:00

Aiks ppl is Feb...haha...it makes me happy n sad at the same time...happy coz i am going home soon and sad coz QUIZ N MID TERM IS COMING!!!...okay is not only coming is on thursday okay...guess wat my first quiz is maths!!..congratulate me...argh...okay i am not the type who can stand studying through midnight...i am the one who wake up early in the morning to study...so..gonna start tml..i noe is late...but tat's when my brain can rmb things...i mean a few days before exam...if i study before hand is useless...really...i read through but i cant rmb...even though i memories it...hehe...weird brain..is okay...i am blessed to have brain...=)...so tired dy...till here la today...n is Feb...i cant wait to go HOME...i miss mummy's home-cook-food!!!..i miss cooking myself also...hehe...nitez ppl..

不敢再踏出那第一步，因为每次都跌到，所以学会封闭，学会退让，学会把自己隔开，确保自己不再跌到，不再跌入爬不出的陷阱，学会保护好自己的心，不再受到伤害...

Inspired by Amelia

2010-01-29T09:42:00.004+08:00

Juz went to check out her blog and found this song lyric...remember this song from somewhere in my memory...long lost song but is my favourite sometimes back...

誰拉住我　誰救救我　

我從高空　狠狠地墜落誰叫醒我　

說這是夢　說你和她　什麼都還沒有

在窒息的沉默中　你　握痛我的手

愛怎麼了　我怎麼了　一句話都沒有說

我曾經以為愛情應該誠實　

但誠實卻是最尖銳的刀子　

你坦白一切留給我決定　

是多麼的自私　

我恨你　就連你的感謝都太誠實　

你不懂最大的溫柔是掩飾　

在我轉身之前你看不到　

我流淚的樣子

你沒有錯　我沒有錯　

是一陣風　吹熄了承諾

你掙扎過　你要我懂　

那誰來懂我心裏的黑洞

我從來沒有這麼　渴望你欺騙

我掀開一切　千瘡百孔　明天到底怎麼過

我曾經以為愛情應該誠實　
但誠實卻是最尖銳的刀子　
你坦白一切留給我決定　
是多麼的自私　
我恨你　就連你的感謝都太誠實　
你不懂最大的溫柔是掩飾　
在我轉身之前你看不到　
我流淚的樣子

Aiks...emo so early in the morning...no choice coz i kinda failed my presentation..needa redo!!..argh..Is so okayla..haha honestly i didnt feel so defeated lik before..Thank God!!...till here..tata

lalala...

2010-01-28T23:00:00.004+08:00

dunno y juz wanna type a few line...hmmm swt huh...but week 4 is coming to an end tat's the solid truth!!! how fast tat is...argh...haha...but i this morning when i am reading Daily bread Psalms 23..it make me happy...haha..at least before maths..after maths i still kinda happy but not so happy lik before the class start but at least i dun feel defeated lik any other times..hehe...

hmmm but today's morning n nite got a big contrast ar...coz at nite i was singing "我的心痛痛痛彻心灵，我的眼泪流不停...." so random i dunno y am i singing tat song also...but kinda emo again...hmmm...better dun sing tat song...haha...sing Psalms 23 better...hehe...lazy wanna write dy...sleep better tml 8 am de class...aiks...CAN I SKIP CLASS?!...shhh...dun let mummy hear this k?...haha jk jk...nitez ppl...

hehehe..chinese again..

2010-01-25T19:03:00.003+08:00

aiks..在这里四个礼拜了不习惯也要习惯了吧..嘿嘿...其实前几个礼拜就很习惯了啦...第四个礼拜了没有前几个礼拜那么闲空了哦...assignment 一个接一个来了，而且due date都很短的哦...得加油了..加油加油!!..还有要勤劳勤劳念书了哦...

haihz...数学学了那么多年啊，我还是不能胜任它。很悲哀对不对？！我对数学的坚持快要瓦解了，真的得补习了。数学啊，为什么你这么难懂？我不曾花这么多时间去读一个科目的，真的败给了数学。

aiks 不讲了，今天和朋友去了secret recipe..没吃到cake因为要省钱，既然饱了就不可以贪心。hehe...蒋，还可以减肥噢。一石二鸟，哈哈乱用成语。偶尔一次，不会怎样。嘿嘿！

现在就要学书了噢，quiz & mid-term 要到了。所以要加油咯，不想白白把到手的分送走。

Hmmm 那就蒋先吧，懒惰写了。去读书了。tata..=)

Weeeek 4!!!

2010-01-25T00:22:00.004+08:00

ARGH!!! IS OFFICIALLY WEEK 4...

N YVONNE IS OFFICIALLY WARNING MYSELF TO STOP DREAMING PLUS SHOPPING!!!

IT'S TIME TO STUDY!!!

okay..off to sleep...so tired...=P..

Fridayyyyy!!!

2010-01-22T23:26:00.003+08:00

Ermm ya finally hardworking enough to rewrite today's post...haha...swt...

PPL IS FRIDAY N IT INDICATES TAT WEEK 3 IS OFFICIALLY OVER N WEEK 4 IS COMING N WEEK 5 IS COMING SOON N IT MEANS THAT QUIZ IS SOOOOOOOOOOO NEAR!!....MID-TERM WILL BE JUZ AROUND THE CORNER!!!...ARGH!!!...PPL START STUDYING STOP SHOPPING!!!....

haha...actually is reminding myself..Lols...juz came back from the Orientation Night..is a blast!!..n i enjoyed myself...first time in my whole life i dare myself to not-be-shy but to be confident enough to stand in front of ppl n play games..hehe..n i did it...THANK GOD....gain a bit of confident...=)...so student council's election...games...performance by lecturers n students...FOOD...Lols...n speeches...n the coolest thingy of the nite we play the JamBay..i dunno how issit spell but is basically a drum..a traditional drum...we all actually create our own rythm wif it...i really had fun must admit...hehe...n then got HMC's band...then pulang rumah....opps...wrong pulang hostel...rumah kat Kuching la girl...haha

so this afternoon was cooking my own lunch since i overshoot my budget last week...shopping really damage all my plan...have to be self control a bit....LOLS...n i was typing while waiting for my porridge to boil tat's y in the end accidentally deleted my post..T.T...urgh was so piss wif myself....

n then went to CF this after...CF stands for Christian Fellowship...n is real true tat it is a place where Christian all meet together n fellowship in God's presence...u see in college we have ppl from all over the places n then we juz meet in one place n worshipping the same God how awesome is tat..=)...we may come from different country..different church..different races..but we are all God's children..=P...enjoy CF today is really not the same wif ISCF in High School...college kinda rocks...but challenges n temptation is all around us have to be careful n think over n over again before making decision or conclusion...hmmm...hehe

argh...so tired today...dunno wat happen de...but really have fun today...kinda cheer up a bit from the cloudiness in my mood...dunno wat happen this few days...got emo so easily...time to evaluate myself...=P...stop here...tata...

Fridayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

2010-01-22T15:23:00.005+08:00

grrr...so angry...i deleted my own post crap....lazy write liao....rewrite later...so hungry...i wan my lunch...

week 3..

2010-01-18T11:12:00.004+08:00

is week 3 already o...didnt realise tat i have been in KL for so long dy...haha...so far so good...is a good start n i really wanna THANK GOD for everything here..the ppl i met is all good ppl..n i wanna thank all the c-factorian for the support...=P...i still miss Kuching..miss church..miss c-factor...but i noe God send me here for a reason n i am surprise that i didnt flood the airport on the day i left...even until now i didnt sheard a drop of tears...i noe God make me strong n i noe He is wif me tat's y i am strong..He gave me peace to leave my comfort zone n give me strength to continue my new face of life here in this stranger land..=)...tis is the first time i feel so confident of wat i wanted to do...really really sure of wat i wanted to do...the road in front of me maybe tough but i noe if i put God first in my life He will be there to hold my hand n lead me through all that..hehehe

hmmm...week 2 is kinda not so hectic so me n my fren ( my future roommate ) decided to go shopping on this week as it is not so hectic yet...haha...i cnt remember how many places we went n i noe i am broke tis week...haha...no money for meals..T.T...cook myself...haha..thanks to my other fren who bring i dunno wat u call tat thingy..is not gas but is electric thingy so we can cook...Lols...lets recall where we go....we went Timess square n Sungei Wang lots n lots of times n then we went to 1U n i remember we got lost..hahaha...swt...Rach say is normal for the first few times...haha..then we went "Chee Chiong Gai"...haha n oh ya 1U...Wan Yee which is my future roommate challenge us to wear high heels to go shopping...haha...i told them is gonna hurts a thousand times but they say wanna try so okay lo...in the end haven't walk out of residence already say painful..haha...but we still wear it to shop...nice experience...went to K also...sing lik no tomorrow...so nice...love it...wanna go another time...hehe...release tention of studying...=P...so far shopping is all bout food we eat a lot...dun question the two skinny girl here eat more than me...hehe...n i bought a pair of high heels n is cheap okay..the height is 8.5cm my fren juz measured...scary...n the heels is so thin...bought 1 dress n a t-shirt n both plus plus only 25.90 okay..is so cheap...mummy should come here n shop..blek...=P...better dun tell her..

Aiks so hungry now..only drank a cup of milo for breakfast...now waiting for my wan yee to finish class then go eat roti canai..the cheapest de liao...dun blame me...haha...tonight's dinner is BREAD N KAYA...sound "nice"..Lols...i will stop here...will update more next time...

tata...chao

Random

2010-01-13T14:22:00.003+08:00

haihz...今天不知道吹什么风，突然间想写华语的post....hehe
来吉隆坡已经一个多星期了，
慢慢的习惯这里的生活，
只是我不能理解为什么这里的食物这么贵？。。
哈哈，反正能省则省。。
还是很想家咯，超想我的弟妹的，
没有他们很不习惯啦，（噢，和心里话被他们看见了，嘿嘿，感动叻！）

在这里认识了几位朋友，
因为大家都住宿舍所以，
慢慢的就变成了好朋友，
一起吃饭，一起逛街，一起读书，一起去上课
哈哈，几乎每天都粘在一起。
他们对我都好好噢...嘿嘿...

还是很想念我的大姐啦，
真的没有人比你更了解我咯，
hehe...很想念一起上课的日子噢，
那个时候是我在学校最快乐的日子，
我们的“一起”太多了说不完，
应该可以写成一本书了。
常常我还没开口你就知道我要说什么，我在想什么，
现在，虽然我们分隔两地但是我知道我们的友谊不变..=)
哎哟，干嘛写着写着就写到这么悲啦。。
哈哈，可是是真的很想大姐的..hehe

好啦懒惰写了啦，
难得有一个下午可以睡午觉，
不可以浪费啦！
否则对不起自己
哈哈。。

One week passed

2010-01-11T11:58:00.004+08:00

Lols yeaps one week have gone n i am still here in KL surviving colloge...haha...college have been good...n everything is okay...i am getting use to colloge life now...n ya....college is very different from high skul...aiks...=)...so far enjoying classes but maths really give me a hard time i nd twice of the normal ppl's brain to understand maths...is pathetic but i noe God is here wif me n i have ntg to scared of..=)..smile ppl...God is so good to me!!!...sometimes u juz dun realise it but when u reflect back u will c how good God is...no matter in wat situation u will see God moving in ur life...hehe...juz TRUST in HIM!!!...okay...online-ing in campus...first time n i love it...the connection is great!!...haha...

Missing c-factorian lots...take care ppl...i am coming back soon...=)...dun miss me too much...

1st day

2010-01-05T15:53:00.002+08:00

ahaha..first day of College...finding all the lecture halls n seminar rooms is fun...i thought i would get lost...but haha..Thank God i am on time for every class...surprisingly Malaysian study didnt bored me for the first day...i will c how it goes tml...haha...computing principle's lecturer is fun...but i dunno whether it last or not..or juz for the first day to relax us..haha..and...english was fun...but i think my first essay gonna sucks...is lik talking more than writing...haha...dun care...juz c wat the teacher comment bout it first..then i will try to correct my mistake...hmmm have kfc for lunch...eating alone so sad...Lols..coz frens all got agenda..

so in conclusion..(wow sound so essay-ish)..college was fine for the first 2 days...i dunno wat i will face in the coming days...but i noe tat God will always be wif me...haha..AMEN!!...hmmm...the line here is so bad...hopefully i can watch my series..hehe..dun blame me...i nd some drama to cheer me..

miss kch...miss my family n frens..i luv u all...coming back soon...hehe..=P..hearts u all

New start

2010-01-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

Arrive in Kl...safe n sound...thank God...miss home...aiks...better sleep...nitez ppl..is a new start....=)

2009-12-31T00:12:00.002+08:00

远远-Lin Yu Zhong

或许我不再出现爱才值得你怀念

你也不想见见了也不变

你痛苦转身的局面

或许我放的坚决你才允许让回忆浮现

是苦还是甜想起我的脸

希望不是眼泪的咸

我只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏

我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈

可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前

已不见你幸福爱我的脸

或许我放的坚决你才允许让泪浮现

是苦还是甜想起我的脸

希望不是眼泪的咸

我只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏

我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈

可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前

已不见你幸福爱我的脸

还欠你太多誓言我已没资格实践

为我紧紧贴着你的从前

而现在的我

只好离你远远却已伤害你偏偏

我不配你的美竟把你爱得狼狈

可是我离你越远你越近靠在我眼前

已不见你幸福爱我的脸

在远远你幸福我会看见

Aikkss...

2009-12-26T17:51:00.003+08:00

Just came back from a long day...although is only from 12pm to 5.30pm...but i have already worn out...haha...feel old already...maybe i am really undergoing stress...n my performance sucks today...c i have dance practise today..n i suppose to bring speaker n of all things to forget i forget my speaker....first slap for myself...then i go CJ practise...i end up doing a stupid explanation which everyone dun understand n i end up forget to prepare everything ii nd to prepare...i was so swt...second slap...then we got rehearsal...i keep on swinging my ribbon to the wrong side n i kinda forget the step...another slap for myself...n the dance...i think as the leader who organise this i think i didnt do a good job...n i sucks...I REALLY HAVE TO THANKS ALL MY DANCE MEMBER FOR THEIR PARTICIPATION N THEIR SUPPORT!!..LOVE U ALL OooRAH!!!...as for me...i really didnt do a good job..too "good" tat no one actually listen to me...feel so invisable...okay...tis is only wat i think okay...my own interpretation...not blaming anyone okay...haha...i learn my lesson...learn to be more fierce n more serious when come to organising things....no mercy unless is really important...haha...dun be shock if u c me lik tis...yvonne nd to change...cannot always be lik tis...i have to learn to say NO to ppl now...haha...wanna take a break after tml...wanna relax n hang out wif my fren before i go study...n i actually only have 1 week n a day in kuching only...how sad...time flies so fast...haha...feel so much better after writing...feel so sorry for my blog everytime i throw all my feeling here...haha...is okay rite...=P...tis is me...after writing is am okay...haha...

Pray tat everything will goes well tml n our youth will really MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!!...C-FACTOR ROCKSS!!!..OooRah!!!...<3

Merry Christmas People!!!!!

2009-12-25T16:43:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas People!!!!....hehe to all the people tat i did not wish on phone i am so sorry...haha...we cant msg everyone rite?...so i wish all of u here okay?...i am happy tat i learn my lesson i am good now...learn a huge lesson n i step up a big step in my whole to make up for tis mistake...=)...but i am happy...people...treasure the people's around u...so lazy to write outside...oh ya...my computer broke down on christmas eve...so sad rite?...haha...is okay...fast from comp awhile is good!!...hope my comp come back soon...tata...luvvss...=P...